The Solitude of Smaller Races

This time of year in Indianapolis, runners get ready for the Mini Marathon. If you haven't run it, it involves about 33,000 of your closest friends all running 13.1 miles, including running on the track of the famed Indianapolis Motor Speedway. Every day I talk to people who tell me they love running in the race, because of all the people(I promise you it isn't the scenery).

I can do the mega-races, and have. I like the solitude though of the smaller races. I like the feeling that is just me and a few folks out there. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy the big races, but there is something nice about a smaller race. It feels more like a community of runners who just want to go out on their run.

In these races I can focus on my breathing, listen to my footsteps, take some time to enjoy looking around. I like the solitude. I don't have to listen to the group of people who are being loud and talking about what they did last week on vacation, or the highs and lows of the stock market, or whatever it is they are socializing about. Because I don't run fast, I hear those conversations for too long.

This is one of the reasons I am looking forward to the race in South Bend this week. There will be about 1,000 runners, mostly students, and it will be quieter and give me some time to enjoy the campus.

Ironically I am considering doing the Chicago Marathon next year. Talk about the reverse of what I just wrote. Chicago though is a different beast, and it is the one race which sticks in my craw(2007 still burns in my mind).

In the meantime, I am going to be running some smaller races and taking some time to enjoy the solitude.

Charlie

If It Isn't Fun...Don't Do It

This is the time of year I work with a lot of kids running in track. I ask them the same thing, "Do you enjoy running track?" Most of the time the kids say yes. Now and then I get the kid though who is clearly living their parents dream. I know this, because the parent is usually the one answering all my questions, and the kid is sitting there, not really wanting to even look at shoes.

I tell them running and track should be fun. I want kids to love running. I understand though that not every kid dreams of winning the 100m, or setting a world record. I know there are kids just happy to be in a sport and being part of a team. Woe to the kid though with the sports booster parent who is pushing their kid.

I spoke with a parent today who was telling me he and his son are working on lowering his(the kid's) mile to a sub 7:00 mile. This boy was 12. The entire time I worked with him, he never smiled. His dad was beaming and boasting about the 5ks and how fast the boy is.

I don't like it when parents push their kids in sports. It should be something kids enjoy. If they aren't enjoying it, they need to find something they do enjoy.

I think about this in my running. These days I am enjoying running. It doesn't seem like a chore. It's getting back to a place I want to run, and just be out there. Yesterday's 3.4 mile run was nice and easy. I felt good, happy to be outside.

I got a new pair of shoes yesterday, so I am looking forward to trying them tomorrow.

Charlie

The Next Race is Holy

If you know anything about me, you know about my love for the University of Notre Dame. As a kid I grew up going to the football games. My idol to this day is Joe Montana. My first half marathon ended on the 50 yard line in Notre Dame Stadium. I'm pretty sure I bleed Blue and Gold.

Next weekend if the Holy Half Marathon and 10K. Originally I was going to do the half marathon, but my body isn't ready for that. Instead I will run the 10K. The race goes through and around the campus. For those who haven't been to Notre Dame, it is a lovely campus. There is a lake, lots of trees, and cool gothic looking buildings. I'm looking forward to running this.

My body is comfortable right now with distances up to 7 miles, so I am good to do this one. I know the half would have been hard for me, and I would have gotten down on myself. So on to South Bend, where I will run with the ghosts of football past.

Charlie

The Shoe Guide

Every few months running magazines like to publish their shoe guides. You folks know what I am talking about. It's those articles where they tell you what shoe updates are, and how they might work for you. We all read them, and I loathe them

For someone in the running shoe business the shoe guide is something we roll our eyes about. We deal with the customer who comes in, sometimes with the guide in hand, and tells us they want this shoe, because they article says the shoe is perfect for them. Nine times out of ten - it isn't.

On a daily basis I work with people who think the following:

Overpronation is bad.

Overpronation means they roll to the outside.

They roll to the outside because their heel is worn.

They have a high arch or are flat footed.

Amazingly enough most people get their issue wrong, but they read these articles and assume if it worked for this person, it must apply to them. Again, it usually doesn't.

Pronation is what it is. Whether you overpronate or supinate, or are neutral, your mechanics are your mechanics. There is no judgement call on them.

Your heel is worn, because most of us heel strike, and that is the part of the shoe we wear down first.

Arches can play a roll in the kind of shoe, but it is not a given.

What is good about these articles is they expose people to shoes, the technology going into them, and how they can help some types of runners. What you don't know is the shoe companies pay big money to have those shoes reviewed. Have you ever read a review that was horrible about a shoe in Runner's World? Doubtful. Some reviews may not be glowing, but I have yet to read a review which said NOT to buy a shoe.

Take these reviews with a grain of salt. The shoe that will work best for you will be the shoe which fits the best, and feels the most natural.

Charlie

Marathons of Memory and Life

I read this article this morning, and wanted to share.

http://www.ou.edu/worldlit/03_2012/essay-robinson.html

The author talks about how running, marathons specifically bridge life, from the horrors of war, to a celebration of peace and reflection. I have always found running to be a way to handle the difficult times in my life. When I have been down, it is simply amazing how much a good run can turn things around, or help me put things in perspective.

Running metaphorically helps us break free from the burdens, problems and issues we have. The author makes an interesting point. We don't have races or runs at a funeral. That is not to say though we can't organize a memorial race for those who are gone.

Would be curious about your thoughts on this article.

Charlie

Reboot!

Welcome to the return of Running With Coffee.

I have been away from blogging for a while, as I was working through, not only some issues, but if I wanted to still blog. I do, and I thank you for your patience. I am starting up the blog and writing again. So you may wonder what has been going on since I last wrote....

Well I am felling better. I thought it best not to turn this blog into my personal bitch session. I know I don't like reading that, so why should you. I am ready to focus more on running and get back to sharing all things running with you.

To that end, I went on a 7 mile run today. It was an easy run, but I figured since I had not done serious miles(by serious I mean over 5 miles), I would not work on speed. To be honest, I can't do speed right now. I am not in speed shape. So for now, I am working on the miles.

I ran on the Monon Trail. It was a sunny day in the 70s - just a nice Spring day. It felt good to be in a shirt and shorts, and not layering with winter duds. Lots of people were out enjoying the day. I got the familiar nods from fellow runners. I always like that.

At the end of the run, I was tired, but not beat tired. This bodes well for me. I have the Holy Half Marathon coming up soon, but I think I will do the 10K instead. I am not in half marathon shape right now, but I know I can do a decent 10K.

Going forward I will be sharing more running things, and not just about my running. I want to make this blog fun, informative, and yes....about running with coffee.

:-)Charlie

Depressing Week

This has not been a great week for me. Cable issues at home have limited how often I am online, so I apologize for not posting sooner. I got my results from the testing I did at NIFS. I am very overweight. I believe I am in the obese category. I have to take some it this with a grain of salt, because this is not a doctor, but a series of tests which are rudimentary. Still it is disheartening.

I am also feeling down about what I am doing these days. I suspect most of this is because I am approaching 50. I am not feeling like I am accomplishing things. I have felt frustrated with the directions I am headed. Am I doing what I should be doing?

Yes, a run would help, but work is really hampering my running. It's funny, people assume you run a lot when you work in a running store....nope not true. You run less, or at least a good many of us in the business run less.

I am plotting out a running schedule for next week though.

In the meantime, I am trying to figure out my place in the world. Do I stay in the running business? I still love it, but I feel there are other things I want to do in life. Not ready to talk about what those other things are, but I would like to figure if they can co-exist with my career.

I am hating approaching 50....I feel down. Guess mid-life crisis has hit?

Charlie

Limitations

I have long written about the limitations I have with being physically active, due to issues surrounding my clubbed feet. Yesterday was another issue to overcome. Mark and I are having our fitness evaluated at NIFS, and in the course of the evaluation, you are asked to do various types of exercise. I wasn't able to do about 30% of them.

It depresses me, but I always try to see what I can do.

The trainer doing the evaluation was bothering me a bit, because she told me she would stop the activity if I "broke" the routine at all. So the first sign I couldn't complete an activity, she would stop me. I explained to her that I like to try all exercises thrown at me, and was wondering if she could see what I could do. She told me that wasn't how the test works. Understood.

During the course of the interview portion, she asked me activity questions. She and the intern present took notes, but from this I could tell who was listening to me. She asked me my goals. I told her I would like to be fitter, so I could run easier, and get better times in my races, and just better overall health. The intern asked me about my marathoning. We spoke for about 5 minutes about my races.

When it came time for me to do the run portion, the trainer asked me if I was, "comfortable running 1 mile." Both the intern and I looked at her oddly. I said, "I think I can do that." To which the intern said,"Would you rather run your 26.2 instead?" We both smiled, and the trainer looked confused.

The 1 mile run was a good one. Typically I run 6 minutes, and walk 1 minute, but since this was a test, I ran the whole mile - no walk break. I hadn't done that in years. I did it, and it felt good. I was upbeat when I finished.

Then the limitations set in again. The trainer had me do some more exercises I could not initially do. I got a bit frustrated and said, "I suppose this test is really about what I can't do." She smiled and said that wasn't the case at all. Still that was how I felt.

I get the results in about a week. From these results an exercise program will be created for me. I did "learn" something yesterday - as the trainer said, "You run pretty well." Uh huh.

Charlie

TRX is Not For the Faint Hearted

Yesterday morning at 6am, Mark and I were starting our TRX class. Two things I learned. First, not everyone shows up for a butt kicking. We were the only two in the class yesterday. Second, when you are the only two, the trainer has plenty of time to give you attention.

Christy is very nice, and very good at the class. She checks in to make sure we are doing ok, and advising us when we need to do something with the particular exercise we are doing. Exercising is tough enough, but suspension training really kicks you.

Christy made sure our extensions we extended, our jumps were jumpy, our lunges were lungier, and our squats were squatier. Sorry for the made up vocabulary, but no other words suffice. At the end of the 30 minutes my pecs, arms and shoulder blades were sore. I think Mark's legs we hurting.

TRX is tough. I am enjoying it, and I think it is an outstanding cross train, but it's not for the faint hearted.

Charlie

Sunday Run in Carmel

Winter has not been brutal in Indiana this year. You can tell, because the trails and roads are full of people running. I joined them today, as I headed out on the Hagan-Burke and Monon Trails.

My goal was to run 4 miles. I didn't care how long it took - sort of. So off I went. I got to the mid point in 28:05. So my goal heading back was to do negative splits.

I felt good during the run. There were a couple of icy patches, but I navigated those pretty well. Still I kept going. It was also windy in spots, so sometimes I had the wind in my face, other times it was pushing my back along.

I knew I was going to be close to negative splits on the way back. In the end though, I did the return in 28:17. No negative split this time, but I feel I was consistent during the run, and that was a good feeling.

Will try for a longer run next weekend.

Charlie

Speed Work

Hit the gym yesterday, and practiced what I read for older runners. Before I ran, I did 10 minutes of stretching and walking as a warm up. My run turned into speed work, as there were school groups in the gym, and the kids were all over the track. I went to the treadmill.

I have not done any regular running on a treadmill in many months, so I started easy. It didn't take my long to find my groove. I alternated between 4.5 and 4.7 on the treadmill. So my pace was comfortable, but could push it a bit. I did hit 5.0 a couple times; each time I did it for a minute.

I went 2.25 miles on the treadmill, and I was pouring sweat. I mean you could wring me out, and sweat would flow profusely. I felt great though.

Mark had a fitness evaluation done while I ran. We originally thought we could do it together, but was told one at a time. My time will be next week.

Good speedy run today.....next run is a long run.

Charlie

Older Runners

Running Times has an article this month which talks about older runners. By older, they mean between the ages of 37-80. As it turns out, I am in that demographic.

Two things jump out at me in this article. First is that we get older our running ability, specifically longer distances. The author says that our longer runs become shorter. No longer are we able to do multiple 10 mile runs. Instead we do shorter runs, fewer longer runs, and focus on being slower in those longer runs.

Second is we have to take more time to get ready to run. As it says in the article, no longer can we just start one a run like a high school student. Interviews with older runners show that there is any combination or warm ups runners do before going on their run.

After I got over the initial depression that I am an older runner, I saw that most of what the article says makes sense. I think I need to work on changing my mentality about my running, and understand that what I could do 6-7 years ago, is different now. So I may not PR in a half marathon, but I will continue to improve how I run a half marathon.

The overriding theme in the article is that older runners need to do what they can to ensure they will run as long as they can/want.

Charlie

TRX - The Second But Kicking

Today was class number two of TRX. Yes, it seemed a bit easier than last Monday, as I hope it would, but still TRX is a butt kicking class. In that respect it's similar to pilates.

I enjoyed the class, though it is obvious I have some things to master between now and next Monday. For instance, the exercises involving my feet in the straps is a challenge, simply because my feet don't like to stay in the darned things.

Back in the 80s there were ads for Soloflex, which had a hot young guy, with rippling abs and muscles. He would not sweat, but glisten as he did each exercise. And while I look nothing like him, my goal today was to glisten. We'll just say for arguments sake - I glistened. Still I thought about those ads, and how I would like to work out more like that. No, I don't want to look like him. Besides, when that guy spoke, it always sounded like a purse fell out of his mouth.

Good workout today....running kicks in this week.

Charlie

Humbled

I have written posts similar to this, but it happened again today, and I feel humbled. Today was the start of the Indy Mini Training Program I am coaching. People of all abilities and level of running/walking can be in our training program.

Today I asked who in the crowd had the Mini, and a group raised their hands. That group whittled down to one when I asked if anyone had run over 10 Minis. I also asked if we had beginning runners. One woman, in her 60s, timidly raised her hand, and I welcomed her with a $10 gift certificate to the store. She told the group she had not run previously.

Later the woman came up to me to get her t-shirt for the program, and we talked a bit. She told me she was doing this program and the race, because of a talk I gave at a Weight Watchers meeting a couple months ago. She told me I inspired her to run and to enter the Mini Marathon.

I am humbled that someone would take any inspiration from me. It's easy to think about what I do on a day by day basis as just managing a running store. In reality though we in the running business do much more than sell shoes. We offer encouragement, advice, expertise , and support. As it turns out we also offer inspiration.

I will do my best to coach her through this training and the race.

Charlie

Spring Season

The plan had been to run the Rock n Roll USA in D.C.. Yup that was the plan. Life changed things when Mark and I decided to get married. Now we are planning a wedding, and extra money has to go towards that. This changes how I decide on races this year. I need to stick closer to home for the most part.

I'm making a change to the first race of the year. I am looking at the Holy Half Marathon at Notre Dame. It's a close race, and we don't have to fly there. I will make ventures outside Indiana during the year, but for now I need to save money.

Starting tomorrow I will be coaching about 70 people for the Indy Mini Marathon in May. So a good deal of focus will be on helping those people. So my Spring is busy.

Still my goal for the year is to run 4 half marathons. Need to examine the ones I want to do. I know how I want to finish the year, now I just need to fill things in.

Charlie

TRX/Run Combo

Yesterday at the gym, I did something a little different - I ran for 2 miles, and I followed that up with a 15 minute TRX workout. The result was a more intense workout, and I really enjoyed it. I think mixing things up is good.

I did not intend to do the TRX workout, but as I kept running past the apparatus, I thought it might be a good idea to throw it into my time at the gym. TRX does two things; it works your core, and it is a good stretch. I liked the stretch part, especially following the run. As I have said from time to time, I need to stretch more, and TRX gives me a good stretch.

The run itself was a good run. I focused on even negative splits. My first mile was 13:33, my second was 13:30. Hey 3 seconds better is 3 seconds better.

Later today I will be posting a second time, where I talk about my plans for the Spring running season.

Charlie

Solitude on a Run

Winter running can have a certain loneliness to it. The air is quiet. The sound you hear most is the crunch of the snow and ice. I actually love that sound. I also like the quiet of a winter run.

Today I ran 3 miles on the Monon Trail. The trail had patches of snow and ice that I would hear crunch softly under my feet. I actually found I didn't like running on the bare path. I think what bothered my most of about the non-snowy part of the trail, was the chance of black ice. So I tread very carefully.

Winter runs are not always fast, but with the slowness comes for an appreciation of the quiet around.

Charlie

3 Miles - Zippy People All Around

Yesterday Mark and I headed to NIFS to workout. While Mark worked the Eliptical into a frenzy, I was on the track running 3 miles. While my run wasn't zippy, I had the pleasure of running with the IUPUI Track Team.

For those who don't know IUPUI is Indiana University, Purdue University Indianapolis. Two schools combined into one. NIFS is located on campus, so all of the schools athletic teams practice and workout there. The track team was doing speed work. They would zip through 100 and 200 meter sprints, and then walk a lap around the track.

While I was impressed to watch these folks and their speed, I had to laugh to myself that they may not be able to keep up with me over the course of 13.1 or 26.2 miles. At least that was what I told myself.

The run itself was good. I felt good getting the 3 miles in. Another run down!

Charlie

Pushing It Oh So Slightly

dd Friday I ran a 3 mile run at the gym, and I pushed the pace a bit. In fact I ended up going a bit a minute and a half faster than the previous 3 miler. That felt good. I felt like I was accomplishing something. In my head though I knew I had some work to do in regards to my stamina, which is lacking these days.

Yesterday I headed out on the Monon Trail. I ran a total of 4 miles, which I have not done in a long time. The day was sunny and chilly, but there I was in a long sleeve shirt and shorts heading down the trail. This run I pushed the pace a bit, and got the run in under 51 minutes. Again I felt great.

Pushing it oh so slightly is going to be the way I go on this. I weighed myself on Friday, and I have crossed the 250lbs mark. It would have been easy for me to get very depressed about this, but instead I felt more emboldened to work on this. That was the reason I went for 4 miles yesterday, and I am glad I did.

Today I am feeling stiff(I also went bowling last night). So today is a rest day.

Charlie

New Day - Feeling Good

The new year is still treating me well. I am eating better for one thing, and I can already tell I feel better for that. Today I logged another 3 mile run. I was much faster today than Monday. Monday's run was 40:59, today's was 39:35. Clearly the speed was with me. I think it helped that I was feeling healthier.

So what haven't I been doing? I have made better choices. I am making sure my portions are better. I'm doing the things which have been successful for me in the past.

Because I am an emotional eater, I am also making sure I am doing things to ward off that emotional strife which leads to poor eating. I am speaking my mind a bit more when I need to. I am getting what is inside me out. That has to be better.

So today is a feeling good day.

One more run this week, and I will have 3 runs done.

Charlie

2012+3=Great Start

Yesterday Mark and I headed to the gym for our first workout of the new year. While the winds and snow were blowing outside, we were comfy inside working out with everyone who made a resolution to get fit. Gotta love January. The gym are packed for about three weeks, then it all goes back to normal.

Mark went on the Elliptical. That is is apparatus of choice. I ran on the track. I bobbed and weaved through the various walkers, and was determined to get 3 miles in. The good news is I did it! I had not run 3 miles in a month, so I wanted this one.

No one will accuse me of setting a world record, but that wasn't the point. The run was simply to accomplish the 3 miles. I felt good the entire run. I didn't feel tired as I thought I might. It just felt good.

Mark was happy with his workout. He also did 100 crunches. That was a challenge for him, but he did it too.

2012 is off to a good start.

Charlie

2012 Goals

A new year means new goals.....

Overall I am working on my half marathon this year. To do this though I have to be in better shape. That is the more important goal for me. I need to be in better shape and healthier.

Going to the gym to train will be one step, running more and better is another step, but the most important part to better health will be changing my relationship with food. In the last couple years a new job, a new home, and the difficulties with adjusting, food became a coping mechanism. It can't be. So I will work hard to overcome those bad habits, and change my relationship with it.

Tomorrow Mark and I go to the gym. I go in with a fresh attitude and mind set.

Races to plan for.....

At this time the only race I am registered for is the Rock n' Roll USA in March - half marathon. This will be just to get one under my belt. PRs will come later. This will be my benchmark. The goal will be to improve with each race.

As for my blog, I plan on writing more, and making it a bit more interesting. I think a new attitude here will help as well.

Come along for the ride....it's going to be an interesting year.

Charlie

New Year's Eve Wishes

Here is what I wish for 2012......

May the world take further steps back from the insanity of war and terror.

May we as a country take more steps to understanding that the marriage of two men or two women does not destroy marriage or family, but only enhances it.

As our nation decides our future, let us do it clearly, and not with negative rhetoric which will only lead to worse times.

May those who want a job find one.

For my sweet Mark, who I love with all my heart, may he find where he is in his journey, and be successful.

For me, I am wishing for a healthy new year.

For all of you, I wish nothing but good things in the coming year.

Charlie

One More Look Back Before Moving Ahead

While I am working on the reboot of my life(as it were), I want to look back over 2011 for a moment or two. 2011 was not a stellar year running wise. I had two highlights this year. One was running the Geist Half Marathon. The other was my fundraising campaign for NDSS.

It's always exciting when someone challenges themselves with a race. I have known my friend Kris since our days at Indiana University. She took up running in the last couple years, and wanted to tackle her first half marathon. She asked me to run the Geist Half Marathon with her. I did, and was happy to do it.

Supporting a friend with their running is the equivalent of giving back to the community. We had a good day. Well it was good other than Kris stepping on a nail at mile 2. That was a scary moment. Still she pushed through and no serious injury. She ran ahead once we got closer to the hill portion of the race, but I was very proud of her when I saw her after I crossed the finish line.

The campaign to raise money in honor of my niece Sabrina was one of my biggest challenges, at many levels. I had never done a large fund raising campaign. I know there are people who put on parties, sell food, have garage sales, etc. I did all my fundraising online. In the end I raised just over $2000 for the National Down Syndrome Society.

Anytime you do take on an endeavor like this you learn a lot. Here some of what I learned: I was reminded how strong parents of kids with Down Syndrome are. My sister Anne is amazing to me as she raises Sabrina; I learned about the generosity of friends, even those I have not had contact with in over 20 years, as they came forward to help me with my cause; again I was reminded what we can do when we push ourselves. While I would rather have not taken 8 hours to complete the Portland Marathon, I know I can do what I need to do when the time comes. When I feel I can't do something, my marathon memory should remind me....yes I can.

So now I look ahead to 2012. The goals are "simple." I am planning on running at least 4 half marathon during the year. I will work on getting fit again. I will also work towards a PR. I imagine the latter will come as the year goes on, and not my first race.

Reminder, the first half will be in Washington, D.C. on March 17 - Rock n' Roll USA.

TRX class starts January 16. TRX looks like this:

http://www.youtube.com/user/TRXtraining?v=6uNSEHIQw34&feature=pyv&ad=13000890574&kw=TRX

So on to 2012. Thanks 2011, you taught me some good lessons.

Charlie

Energized and Off

This morning I got my butt to the gym, and off I ran for 30 minutes. It's interesting to see who comes to the gym at various times. Early in the morning is the over 50 crowd. Since I am approaching 50, I guess these are my soon to be peeps.

As I ran I noticed I am lift my shoulders and be tight in the upper body. About midway into the run I was able to loosen up a bit and let my arms go. I found the running to be much easier for me when I did this.

Thoughts as I went round and round...I don't know how I feel about turning 50. I have never been one to worry about age, but as I get closer to it, I am finding I'm not liking it as much. Maybe I'm having that overdue mid-life crisis? I feel like there is much I still want to do in this world....and it isn't getting done. Has anyone gone through that feeling?

Overall though, today was a good day. Glad I hit the gym. Mark and I are now signed up for the TRX class in mid-January. This is going to be, not only motivation, but much needed cross training for me.

The reboot goes on.

Charlie

Running With Coffee 2.0 - Reboot!

When we see ourselves in the mirror, how often so we really examine what we are seeing. Typically I hate looking at myself in the mirror. I don’t like my body; I dare say I hate it. I came to be ok with it when I lost my initial weight. Now that I have gained weight, I am back to hating looking in the mirror.

Today though I forced myself to take a good look in the mirror. No, I didn’t like what I saw, but I made a deal with myself; if I can work at losing the weight again, I will learn to be ok looking at myself in the mirror.

Today was a reboot of sorts. I have not run in 3 weeks. So I didn’t jump back into running. I did a 1.2 mile challenging walk on the treadmill, and then a furious 1.8 bike ride at the gym. I sweated pretty hard, which was the goal. I felt good. Then I looked in the mirror.

“Ugh” was my initial thought. No, I didn’t weigh myself, but I don’t need the scale to tell me that I am wearing size 42 jeans, and am carrying more weight. Still I looked hard in the mirror and made my promise to lose the weight.

I told Mark we are making a change. Since we moved to Indianapolis we haven’t had a routine. This is something Mark has said from time to time. 2012 will be the year we work on a routine.

Our first step will be a class. I am signing us up for a TRX class. What is TRX you ask? It is suspension training, using your own body weight and gravity to build strength, balance, coordination, flexibility, core and joint stability, all while preventing injuries.

The road back is not going to be easy. No doubt you will hear me complain. I need to be focused, and I need support. If you haven’t given up on me, and are still reading, I hope you will encourage me, scold me if I need scolding, or just plain support me in this endeavor.

My eating is changing too. I have gone out too much, time to be a cook at home. Tonight, a simple beef stew and blackberries for dessert. It takes more than exercise my friend. It takes watching what I am doing with food.

So this is my official reboot. It starts here...and now. And sometime in 2012, we’ll see how that mirror is looking.

Charlie

Cross Country Locker Room Talk

I was never on a team in school. So I never got to experience locker room talk. Today at NIFS I listened to guys on the IUPUI Cross Country Team talk to each other. I had to chuckle as I listened.

Guy #1: Dude what are you up to tonight?

Guy #2: Dude I gotta run and get my miles up to 70 this week.

Guy #1: I got tickets to the Butler game want to go?

Guy #2: Don't know, man is it cold out, I don't want to run if it's cold out.

Guy #1: Dude it's cold. Hey....what are you doing tonight?

Guy #3: Why?

Guy #1: Wanna go to the Butler game?

Guy #3: Dude let me get back I gotta run 75 miles this week.

Guy #2: Coach won't like that.

Guy #3: Screw coach I gotta workout.

So all in all I feel like I missed little in school.

My run today was fantastic. I felt a bit like my old self.

Mile 1 - 13:05

Mile 2 - 12:59

Mile 3 - 11:39

Yup, you read that last one correctly. I ZOOMED around the track. I felt like I gave it my all out there, and felt good.

Charlie

Cross Run/Ride

Yesterday at NIFS I did a different workout. I did a bike and run combination. First I ran for two miles on the track. Then I biked for one mile. Then I did a half mile on the track.

I have to say that was an intense workout. Because this was my first time doing this as a workout, I thought 3.5 miles was a good start. The first two miles I did in a little over 26 minutes. The mile on the bike was done in 6:40. That last half mile on the track was slower. Then again I was feeling tired from the bike. I swear I don't know how tri-athletes do this stuff.

Still I enjoyed the workout. It broke things up for me, and it made me sweat!

Will try this again.

Charlie

Where Have I Been?

So if anyone is still reading my blog, I apologize for not writing lately. Much has been going on, some good, some not so good - mixed bag.

My running has not gone well. Part of it has been the aches I feel in my feet. Mostly I have been upset at my weight gain, and have been feeling sorry for myself. This is not a new feeling for me, and I am not proud about writing it. I have always been honest here, so I continue to be honest. I have to understand that I am not the weight I was, and have to look at running a bit differently for now. I have to understand it is a slow process to get back where I was. I am figuring how to do that....one step at a time for now.

The good news in my life, is a blessed piece of news. Mark and I are engaged. We had a series if talks thus last week, and are making plans to get married. The challenge as you can imagine is where. Few places allow us to get married, and the marriage would not be legal in most of the states.

I believe with all my heat the law of the land will change, but I don't want to be 80 when that happens. Mark and I love each other, and have made a commitment to each other, now we want that commitment to be legal in some aspect, and we want to make it known in front of people who love us.

I can take care of my weight....that is temporary. Loving Mark is a lifetime and I want a long and happy life with him.

As for my running, I have run twice this week. Today's was the better of the two. A sunny and chilly November day on the Monon. I ran 3.1 miles, and it felt good as I ran easy. Thoughts? That's easy.....wedding thoughts.

Charlie

The Problem with Arthritis

A few months ago the doctor gave me some reasonable advice as far as my running. On the days I feel good - run, on the days I don't - don't. It frustrates me that I have arthritis in my feet and hips. It frustrates me a great deal. I would love to run every day, but each day I find myself assessing how I feel, and if I can run.

This morning I wanted to go for a run, but my right foot had that annoying ache between my big and second toes. Not a pleasant feeling. So no run this morning, and a LONG day at work ahead.

So on those days I don't run, what should I do? I don't want to do nothing? What might work? That's what I need to figure out.

Charlie

Recruiting to Move

First Steps is a program my store offers designed to get people out the door and walking. From time to time we offer this, and I think it is truly a great first step towards a more active lifestyle. Yesterday I had the opportunity to speak to a Weight Watchers group about joining our program.

If you haven't been to a Weight Watchers meeting, they can be very inspiring. Members of the group will talk about what they have done, the successes and the failures. Each person learns from the other. Guest speakers are rare at these meetings, so I felt honored to speak to the group.

This is my second time speaking to a Weight Watchers group, and I have to say, it was a great thing to do. I spoke about what my store does, and how we help people at all levels of fitness. Then I spoke about my journey to fitness, and how a program like First Steps can really start you on your way.

Prior to my talk, people came up to my table and politely looked over the information. After the talk, 6 women signed up. One gentleman spoke to me about recovering from a stroke, and how this could help him. I told him if he signed up, we could make the program work for him.

I met people who struggle with weight, and some who have lost a couple hundred pounds. Each person has a story, and I was moved by each one. First Steps is going to be great, and I think I will learn a thing or two from it.

Charlie

Birthday Run

I went for my birthday run a day early. It was a crisp, Fall day, which is the kind of day that begs to have a run taken. I headed to the Monon Trail, and headed north into Carmel. The run was nice. Most of the leaves are down, but now and then you still see some color on the leaves.

Thoughts on the run turned to what I want to do next in life. Next year I will be 50, so the future is weighing heavy on my mind. I thought my work, and what I want to accomplish there. Were any solid plans formed? No, but this is what a run does for me, it clears my mind of the clutter, and provides an outlet for me to think, plan and dream.

I will share one of the dreams....it involves Paris and running. Paris is my most favorite place in the world. I have visited 5 times, and would love to visit 5 more times. It is old world, cosmopolitan, beauty, charming, and just such a wonder to get lost in. I have never spent more than a few days there, but would love to spend a week or two, or heck even a good month.

I am interested in running the Paris Half Marathon. Mark suggests waiting until I am a bit faster. Since there is a 2:50 course limit, I agree. Still I wish I could do this race next year.

Ah Paris!

See the power of a good run? It can transport you to places beyond the trail.

Charlie

The 2012 Plan

As I think about my next year in running, I wanted to examine how I run the half marathon. 2012 is not a marathon year for me, but it is a half marathon and shorter distance focused year. I would like to do at least 4 half marathons. I have two in mind, and one I have registered for.

First up us the Rock n Roll USA Half Marathon in Washington, D.C. on March 17. Looking forward to running in one of my former cities. I have run the Cherry Blossom 10 Mile Race, but this will be a half through all the cool parts of the city. Looking forward to it.

The other one I am looking at is the Mo'Cowbell Half Marathon in Missouri. Obviously the race is named after the great SNL skit about "Don't Fear the Reaper." Looks like a fun one.

One race I am planning is the Pride Run in New York City in June. The chance to run 5 miles around Central Park really appeals to me.

There will be other races to be sure. I just want to begin focus on faster times. My PR is 2:45. Can I do that? Not at first. It will take time, but that will be the plan for the year.

Charlie

Hard Lessons

Running teaches us many lessons. Some are amazing and insightful. Others are painful and difficult. Yesterday was one of the hard ones. Yesterday was the annual Monumental Marathon and Half Marathon. Mark wanted to run it, and I was going along to help him on.

Mark did not train like he wanted to, and we came to an understanding that he would walk this. We felt walking strong would carry the day. Speaking of the day, it was ideal. The morning was cold at the start - in the 30s, but would warm up once the sun came up.

We, started with a jog, not a run. I could tell almost immediately it wasn't going to go well. Mark was not looking comfortable at the start. Quickly we started walking, and got in with the last pack of the race. There was a pace leader, and she was a surly woman. She made it clear we had to keep pace, or the truck would come by, and we would have to leave the race.

I think this panicked Mark. He started to panic. He would run a little and walk a little. I felt badly for him, but there was little I could do. He complained he wasn't feeling well. He didn't look good. He also was right in front of the truck, and the pressure of the truck was getting to him.

Mile 2 the truck passed us, and Mark in frustration and sadness told me he couldn't go on. He was almost in tears. He was so upset and sad. All I could do was walk along side him, and gently rub his back and assured him I love him.

I talked to him about how most people never make it to the start line, and that making it to that point is an accomplishment. It was tough for him to hear that, because all he thought was he was a "quitter." Mark is no quitter. He knew that yesterday was not his race, and he just did not have it.

Sometimes we get too stubborn when things aren't working, in trying to make them work. While I am sad for him, the lessons he took were, that sometimes it isn't our day, and he knows what he needs to do the next time, and he will nail it. Tough lessons, but sometimes those are the best.

In the end, I am proud of him, and I love him very much.

Charlie

Approaching Mid Life

Next week I turn 49 years old. Anyone who knows me knows I am not one to let age get to me. I have never stressed about age. This year though was a tough one for me, and for the last couple of weeks, I have started to really think about what getting older means for me.

Arthritis and all that comes with that is one thing. Having to wear a hearing aid was another. All of a sudden I felt old. With that feeling of getting old has come a feeling that my time is limited.

No...I'm not dying. I just have a feeling that time is running out to do the things I want to do in life, and that I need to change some of the goals I wanted to do. For instance, I have come to the conclusion that Boston is out. The hills I encountered in Portland made that clear. Also, an ultramarathon is out. 8 hours on the road in Portland, again lesson learned.

So what can I do running wise? I think the 1/2 marathon distance is a better distance for me. I will still do the occasional marathon, but those days feel like they coming to an end. I just have to adjust.

Think I will like my 50s any better?

Charlie

Dedication

A long time ago, in a time far far away, I was in high school. It was the late 1970s/early 1980s. Running was not on the top of any of my to do lists. I dare say it wasn't on Heidi Moser's list. If it was, I never knew about it.

I was the Swing Choir guy. I always thought of Heidi as the writer/drama gal. We had some mutual classes and friends, but we weren't in the same social circle. As usual, once you leave high school, you go separate ways. We had differing lives. She became dedicated wife and mother. She home schooled her kids, active in her community(if she reads this...I am briefly summing up), and is Team Mom for her kids baseball and football teams.

Me, I became a gay activist, customer service whiz, and then runner(brief summation). Did I mention Heidi ran too? She does.

As we met up years later at a high school reunion, we kept in touch. She started following my running, and I started following her running.

To get to the point, and lots of running later.....Heidi is running the Marine Corps Marathon tomorrow- her first. In order to get herself through the 26.2 miles she dedicating a different mile to someone or someone's who have meant something to her. I am very touched that she is dedicating mile 12 to me. 12 is my favorite number.

I will be thinking of her, and how far she has come in her running. I am glad to have been a small portion of whatever has led her to this point. Run strong Heidi!

Charlie

Feeling Down? Go For a Run

This week I have been feeling down. There is no one thing which has made me feel bad. Periodically I have moments when I am down. I have run twice this week, and today's was more about getting out and clearing my head. As I have said many times, one of the things running does for me is let me get out of my head for a while. I told Mark I needed to run....and I did.

Mark took our dog, Friday, and did a run/walk, as I went for a 40 some odd minute run on the Hagen Burke Trail in Carmel. It was a sunning Autumn day. Temps were in the low 60s and it felt wonderful out there. Off I went, and almost immediately I could feel the glum fading.

Not that a run can make everything better, but when your head is full of negative things, a run, especially on a day like to today, can help make your head less full of the bad stuff. I was looking around at the fall colors. I was feeling the warmth. I just felt good as I ran. I felt a release.

Since Mark had never been on the trail, I worried if he might get lost, so I cut short my run by a few minutes and headed back to meet up with him. He and Friday did take a wrong turn, but righted themselves. He looked like he was enjoying his walk. Friday looked happy to be out and about.

So what had been in my head that was no negative. Work issues of late, the pile of bills at home, dreading, for the first time the idea of getting older, and missing my mom. We are coming up on the anniversary of her passing, so it's always a sad time for me.

No, the run did not make any of those vanish, but it did help me clear my head and get out of the negative energy I had been in. Had I run longer, who knows, I could have solved all the problems of the world....or not.

In a funk? Go for a run.

Charlie

The Return to Running

Yesterday was my first run since the marathon. I think first runs after a major race are tricky, one because you want to run so badly, you just want to let go and run; and two, you have to take it slow, because you are still healing. If you were to let go, you could injure yourself.

I took the second option and ran a nice slow run at the gym. With rain coming down in buckets outside, the track at NIFS provided a nice opportunity to go for a run. I was slow. My average pace never dipped below 13;10. That was fine though. This was my return to running.

This was my run to set some goals for 2012. I think I would like to shoot for 4-6 half marathons next year. One the surface that seems like an ambitious goal for me, but I want to set something I really need to work towards. I thought about how I want to train, eat, and run. Everything needs to build towards my getting back into a shape I am happy with. Yes, I would like to PR. We will see if that is possible, or is age catching up with me.

In the meantime, the Monumental Half Marathon is in a few weeks. I will be walking it with Mark. He is not in running shape right now, and wants to walk it, so we will.

All in all it was a good run for running sake, and for future sake.

Charlie

What's Next?

Home from Portland, and as usual, my thoughts are on runs I have ahead of me. The immediate plan is to do the Monumental Half Marathon with Mark in a few weeks. I believe we will be walking that. Longer term though, what is in store for me?

I had a very long week and plane ride today to ponder that. I am going to take the next year to work on getting back into shape. I would like to do more races, at varying distances, with the half being the longest I go for the next year. Two years down the road though, I believe I will shoot for one more marathon, and then that may be the end of my marathon days. No race is in my mind, so nothing immediately to strive for.

In the meantime I am going to work on getting in better shape, focusing on my running, and how I can improve. I will of course bring you all along the journey.

Charlie

Post-Marathon

In the days since the marathon, lots of pain and soreness. This is what happens, and I know it will happen. Still it is no fun to walk around like Frankenstein, because of the pain you're in. I'm getting better though.

So many people have either posted very nice comments on this blog, on my Facebook, or in emails and texts. I truly appreciate it, and am overwhelmed at the amount of support so many have given me.

Wednesday morning quarterbacking, as it were....there are many things I wish could have happened in the race, and leading up to the race. Yes, I wish the training had been better. Yes, I wish I could have run more during the race. Yes, I wish I could have avoided the alternate course. The thing is, it was, what it was, and I learned a great deal about me that day.

I was reminded that when pressed, we have the ability to be strong, and push through. I learned that my love of running is not only still intact, it is even stronger. I also re-learned that runners are wonderful people. They are the ones who chat with you on the course. If you're hurting, they make sure you're ok. They also encourage you. So many people on the out and back portion of the course would say, "Way to go Charlie!" That's a benefit to having your name on your bib.

I feel good about what I accomplished. There are other days to run better races, but there is only one day to have the experience I had.

Charlie

Portland Marathon - A Lesson in Perserverance

Running a marathon is not easy. Those who take it lightly don't respect the distance. If you can't respect the distance, you have no business in the race. Yesterday was the Portland Marathon, and it would be my greatest marathon challenge.

The weather was pretty good. Temps were in the 50s, and there was a misty rain. Yes, I know rain is not my friend, but if you are going to have rain, misty is a good one.

I was in Corral W. I would learn W stood for walkers. Since I am a run/walker, I wasn't thrilled to be in that grouping. Oh little did I know how much W would mean during the day. The frustrating part for me at the start is when I hit the start line, no one was running, they were walking. I had to decide if I was going to bob and weave and move past, or walk. I did a bit of both. I actually walked for the first 1/2 mile, and then began to jog. I thought, this is a better way to start, then going full throttle.

The start of the race takes you uphill, into a very pretty part of Portland. You look to the left, and you look down towards the river. It isn't too long that you descend down towards the river. Now you are along the Willamette River. This is a great place to run, flat, scenic, really nice.

Nice turns industrial at about mile 6. We are still along the river, but we are in the industrial part of town. Not too attractive. I was feeling good. I had left my watch at the apartment, so I was not paying close attention to time. I was running by feel. I was feeling pretty good at this point. I was not running with any power, but a nice jog.

In my mind, I thought a jog would mean I would have something for the latter stages of the race. Remember, my longest training run had been a 3 hour 13 mile run, so I want to run smart. At this point it rained a little harder, but not for long.

Hungry was in my head. Before the race, I had a banana, cereal and some yogurt, and one double shot espresso. At this point though I was hungry. I knew I would meet Mark after mile 11, and he would have a Builder's Bar for me. On I went.

I met Mark at mile 11, got food, Nuun, and some Alleve. The Alleve turned out to not be a great thing. I took it with the Builder's Bar. Alleve was to make sure I would not be in so much pain later in the race. Soon I gave Mark a kiss and off I went.

Mile 12-14 is a very gradual uphill portion of the course, still industrial, but some houses. I was walking more now. Uphill is tough for me to run. Mile 15 though is nothing like the gradual incline.

You come to the St. James Bridge, and it is a 150' incline. I was walking, and feeling more pain now. This was all 150', and it is a sharp hard incline. I took a physical beating on this, and mentally I was beginning to not feel good. Worse though, my stomach was feeling like I wanted to throw up. Part of that was a reaction to oil/gasoline I had been smelling from the industrial area. I thought though, it must be a reaction to Alleve, and little in my stomach. I felt light headed. On I went.

The St. James Bridge showed a wonderful view of Portland and the surrounding areas. No time to stop though I had to move on. At the end of the bridge there is a sharp curve downward. Foot wise that really bothered me, especially for my right foot.

With the pain and nausea I was feeling, this would be the first time I ever wanted to quit a race. On I went though. Mile 18-19 was hard for me mentally. I was breaking down from all my body was feeling. I should say at I was not running. I had been walking since about mile 15. I would walk the remainder of the race. I had downloaded a GPS to my phone, and saw I was nowhere near any pace I would love. I felt miserable.

I knew I had to get my mind in a better place. Showtunes saved the day. In my iPod, I had a series of showtunes programed, and they picked up my spirits a bit. I also began to think seriously about why I was doing this. This race was for my wonderful little pumpkin, Sabrina. I thought about her, and others with Down Syndrome. Their marathons are shorter, but they endure them in many ways. On I went.

Mile 20 was a pivotal point in the race. At this point they did the one thing I want to avoid, they were opening up the streets, and I had to go on the sidewalk, which meant going on the alternate course. The rules of the race are they don't do this until 6 1/2 hours into the race. We were at 5 hours into the race. They switched early. I was not happy about this.

At this point I made calls. I call people when I am struggling in a race. Mark was first. I let him know the hard time I was having, and he assured me I would finish, and he loved me. He could tell I was breaking down.

I called my sister Anne next. She had been following the race through various updates. She told me she and Sabrina were proud of me. She asked me about the music on the course, and the people I was seeing. It was a nice diversion. At one point she heard me talk to a group of people.

A group of folks were celebrating someone finishing the race. I saw the guy with the medal on his neck. They cheered me on, and I said, "Oh crap I suppose this means I didn't win." They laughed and Anne laughed. I joked with Anne that some Kenyan probably beat me by 3 hours, Mark should have been out there with a steak to tempt him away. She laughed. Anne knew though that the joke was hiding how down I was feeling. She and Sabrina wished me well, and lots of love, and on I walked.

The alternate course takes you through neighborhoods nice and not so nice. Lots of turns and uneven sidewalks. It isn't pleasant to go on. Also there is less support from the race on the alternate course. Mile signs are taped to the sidewalk. Mile 21 was through a neighborhood with food trucks. That didn't seem fair, as I didn't have any money on me.

Mile 22 was a less than charming area. Low class motels which can charge weekly, daily or hourly. In fact I believe I saw a "charming" couple trying to check into one. Clearly an arrangement had been made.

Mile 23 I was on the verge of tears. I was tired, in a great amount of pain, still feeling like I wanted to throw up, and I wanted the day to end. I tried to make some jokes with some of the people around me....lead balloon.

Mile 24 was the bridge back into the city, and we got to encounter Occupy Portland. Some of you know about the Occupy Wall Street protests going on. This is the same thing, but in Portland, though I am not sure why Portland. It was a bit of a mess going through the protestors. Police tried to separate, but were not always successful. At this point I met a woman named Debbie, who walked with me for the remainder of the race. I am grateful to her because she was able to help me get all the negative things out of my head.

We talked about my clubbed feet issues, the race she and I had done, and we talked about Sabrina. This was key, this was bringing everything I was doing back home to me. Running with a purpose is a valued thing, and I was so happy to be doing this for her.

Once we cleared the protestors, it was on to the finish. The last mile had to be the longest mile of my life. Pain, hunger, wanting to see Mark, and just wanted to race to end. Finally the finish was in sight. I also saw Mark at the finish line yelling my name. I made an effort to jog to the finish. It was done. After 8:02:34, it was all over. It was the longest I have been on a course. I was mentally exhausted, my body was screaming at me, and I was in tears. Mark gave me a hug, and it felt better.

Because this was the end of the race, a lot of the goodies were gone, and the photographer to take finishers pictures was breaking everything down. I got my medal though.....and I have to say it is one to be proud of.

Before the race I talked about all I wanted to do was finish. Sometimes, that is all you can do. Yesterday was a day to finish, and to finish with my head held high. I did it.

Charlie

Counting Down to Marathon Day - 1 Day

Tomorrow is Portland Marathon Day! This has been a long time coming. What a journey. I have dealt with foot pain, a cold, fundraising for NDSS, the days I just didn't feel like a run, the days I did feel like a run, but I had to to work. It has been quite a ride.

Tomorrow I will tow the line with a few thousand folks, and off I will venture through a 26.2 mile winding course around Portland. The course is mostly along the river, so it should be a pretty course. There is an industrial area which all the reviews say is not too pleasant, but hey, I will be running through it.

So how do I feel? I feel pretty good. Not achy, that's always a plus. Will limit the walking today. I can't control what went right or wrong with training. I just go - one mile at a time.

Can I PR tomorrow? I am sure that will creep into my head at some point, but for now, the goal is to finish. Mark will meet up with me about half way through and make sure I am ok.

For those interested in tracking my progress, go to http://liveraceresults.com/Portland/ My bib number is 711!

Tomorrow is also a day I honor my niece Sabrina. Her sweet smiling face will be in my thoughts as I take this journey. NDSS has benefited from this run, with $2000 in donations from wonderful people. You can still donate at www.crowdrise.com/runningforsabrina

Tonight, a simple dinner, early to bed....then an early start to the day.

Send positive thoughts my way.

Charlie

Counting Down to Marathon Day - 2 Days

We have arrived in Portland, and the weather is fall like. A bit humid, but the temperatures are cool. Tomorrow we will head to the expo, and take a gander at the course. We also have to figure out where I will meet Mark on the route.

It was a long trip, and I am bushed....still I am glad to be here, and ready for Sunday.

Charlie

Counting Down to Marathon Day - 3 Days

For the last few months I have been raising money and awareness for NDSS. The past few months have been a privilege for me as I have shared the story of my niece Sabrina, and raised money to help people with Down Syndrome and their families. My goal was to raise $2,000, and I am happy to say I have accomplished the goal.

Family, friends and loved ones, and people I have never met, have been kind and very generous in my quest to raise money. More than the money though, I hope I have raised some awareness on how an organization can do good work to ensure that people with Down Syndrome have happy and productive lives, and that their families are supported.

With the money raised, I now run in honor of Sabrina on Sunday, and it will be a pleasure. Of course it won't be easy, but then again it never is.

3 days away.....and I am filled with gratitude to all who have donated.

Charlie

Counting Down to Marathon Day - 4 Days

Today was my last day of running before Sunday's race. This was a take it easy run. I ran 3 miles in 41 minutes. Nope....not balzing fast. I just wanted to run. It felt good.

Most of my thoughts were how to deal with this race mentally. It would be easy to stress over the less than stellar training I have had, but I can't worry about that. I just need to remember what my goals are and take it one step at a time, one mile at a time.

Today a guy came into the store, very nervous about shoes and not wanting to stray away from his training plan. I understand stress happens to first time marathoners. I tried to put him at ease, but he kept quoting Hal Higdon to me. Trust me, I think Higdon's program is fine, but you can improvise a bit. He was worried about not running for two days. I told him his body would be fine, and he would lose no conditioning on two days of rest. He looked at me like I didn't know I was talking about.

Now is not the time to stress....now is the time to relax and know I can do this.

Charlie

Counting Down to Marathon Day - 5 Days

As we continue the countdown to the big day, I want to talk about my running this alone. For the last couple of weeks, a question that has come up again and again is, "Are you running this with anyone?" Maybe this is a typical question, though it isn't one I have asked. I am running this on my own. It's the only way I know how to do a marathon.

Would I like to run one with someone? I could, but I don't think I would want to. I prefer a race like this to be me against the course and the elements. I'm not a talker on my runs. I want to be focused. Now that doesn't mean I couldn't run and talk with someone for 26.2 miles, but I would rather not.

Of course there is the point in the race where I start calling people. Poor Mark gets a call with me being all emotional and telling him how much pain I'm in. He reminds me I can do this, and then on I go.

I like being on my own. Now the question is do I use my iPod or not?

Charlie

Counting Down to Marathon Day - 6 Days

It is now Marathon Week. Yesterday I did get out for a run. Nothing to hard. I took it nice and easy.

Mostly this week I am thinking of how the marathon will play out. Mark and I have decided to scout the course when we get to Portland so we have an idea what it will be like. Mostly I want to show him where I want to meet him, so there is no question of where he will be on race day.

Some things I am pondering......do I take NUUN for all the race? Some of the race? I will have my Mint Chocolate Gu with me. I keep thinking though I want to keep it light. Maybe Mark can give me my NUUN before I head into the area where spectators aren't allowed?

I am getting my water resistant items, so I can be as "dry" as possible. Of course if it is raining, dry will not be an option. Mark says I shouldn't anticipate trouble, but I want to be prepared for rain. Forecast ranges in the 30%-60% chance of rain.

Feeling good though.

Charlie

Counting Down to Marathon Day - 7 Days

Ok...so it is on the eve of 7 days, but close enough. I am one week from running the Portland Marathon. This is the week I really figure things out, stay calm, and don't do anything which will screw things up for next Sunday. No pressure.

First to decide is how much running to do this week. Usually I would say little, but I will run some 1 hour runs this week. The plan is to get up in the morning and run for an hour. Nice Fall morning.....sounds like a plan. I will do another 1 hour run a couple days later, and then nothing until race day.

Keeping motions in check is the next step. Nervous? Yes...but it can't get out of hand. I want to be as calm as possible on race day.

What's the weather? Well early reports show temps in the 50s, and the chances or rain are anywhere from 30% - 60%. I am planning for the 60%. As you know rain is my arch nemesis. I hate rain, and I hate running in it. So what do I do? I plan for it.

Today I got water resistant shorts, which I will test out tomorrow. I will wear a hat to hopefully help my vision. I have also ordered a water resistant jacket. Other than Body Glide the heck out of my body....not much else to do.

Last thing on the list - finish fundraising. I STILL have only $100 to go towards my $2000 goal for NDSS. If you can, please donate at www.crowdrise.com/runningforsabrina

Charlie

Cape Cod

This week I have been in Chatham, MA on Cape Cod attending meetings with New Balance. Yes, this is the view from my room. Running specialty dealers from all over the country have come here to meet with New Balance.

We have been shown the 2012 and 2013 shoes. We have seen the Fall 2012 apparel. We have also met with the folks who design all of these.

It is easy to come away from meetings like this with a "drinking the KoolAid" feel. the honest truth is I like what I see New Balance doing with the upcoming shoes, and will be happy to bring them out to customers. Many thanks to my bosses for allowing me to come out here.

On the running side of things, I have run two very short runs, up and down the hills of Chatham by the water. It is stunning here, and I have loved running here. My legs and feet may not forgive me though.

Now I focus on next week's marathon. I will be counting down the days.

In the meantime....I am enjoying one last evening on the Cape.

Charlie

The Week in Review

This was a big week. I ran 4 miles, 12 miles, and then I got sick.

Yes, I have a cold. As you all know I HATE being sick. But I will freak out about that in a moment.

I ran 4.8 miles on Monday, and it was a wonderful run. The 12 mile run was my 3 hour run, which was actually a 2:52 run. I felt very good after the run. Usually I am stiff and sore, but no....not this time.

Am I bothered by the fact that will be my longest run will be a 2:52? Yeah, but I can't stress about it. The running and training was what it was, and I will deal with it. What bothers me more is this cold.

I had planned a run for tomorrow before my trip to New England this week, but we will have to see if I can beat it back a bit to run.

Did I mention I hate being sick? Ugh!

Charlie

3 Weeks Until Marathon Day

Three weeks from today, I will have finished the Portland Marathon. Originally today was going to be a 3 hour run. That got changed for a number of reasons. In the end I ran one hour on the Monon, and it felt great.

Overall I ran 4.8 miles. I felt strong during the run which is important. The 3 hour run will be done middle of this week.

During the run I thought about several things. I thought about moms like my sister who raise kids with Down Syndrome. I can only imagine the challenges involved. I have nothing but admiration for Anne, and other moms I know like Claire and Heidi.

I also thought about what the course will be like for the marathon. In future posts I will detail the course, and share my thoughts about how I will tackle them.

In the meantime I am really pleased with today's run.

Charlie

It's Fall!!!

I joke this time of year that I wait for Fall weather all summer. I'm not a fan of summer, so when the temps being their plunge to the 50s and 60s, I am in heaven. Yesterday was the first Fall run of the season.

I got to the Monon Trail mid-morning, pointed myself north, and off I went. It was wonderful outside. In the shady part of the trail it felt like the low 50s, in the sun, it felt closer to 65 degrees. I could not have been happier. The leaves are already hinting of color and in some cases are falling.

The run itself was great. My goal was to go for over an hour, which I thought would be around 5 miles. It took my 1 1/2 miles to get into a groove. Once I did, I felt great. I ran past the Monon Center, and kept going North. I made the turn around by the Japanese Gardens, and headed back to my car.

Totally miles for the run - 5.3. I ran it in 1:10:39, which turns out to be around a 13:10/mile pace. My body felt good. There was no stiffness or aches.

People were in a good mood on the trail. Must have been fellow Fall lovers. Many people waved or said hello. I think a couple of them were my customers. All in all a really good run as I prep for a long run this weekend.

Charlie

23 Days.....

As we get closer to marathon day, I wanted to give an update on the running. I think it's going well. Wednesday I ran for 4 miles and felt great. Today my plan is to do 4-5 miles and see how that goes. My body is not hurting, though I am very leery of all the people around me who are getting sick. Keep the HELL away from me with your sickness.

I was asked the other day if I will be ready. Here is the great unknown - I don't know. Here is what I believe. I can do 26.2 miles. Can I do it like I have in the past? Doubtful. I just know I can do this.

Time to get ready for my run.

Charlie

Listening to the Body

The body is an amazing thing. It can tell us when it wants to do something, and when it doesn't. Runners are also amazing. They have this uncanny ability to not listen to their bodies, and push on. When that happens, injury typically happens.

Today I was feeling a bit stiff as I started my run. I changed my goal immediately. Instead of going for 4 miles, I decided I would stop when my body told me to. That happened at 2.5 miles. Nothing was wrong. I just know that after a longer run like the last one, my body doesn't snap back. Never has. So I pulled back, knowing I would run another day.

To be honest I don't always like listening to my body. Today though, I didn't mind. Portland is 27 days away, and I want to be sure my body is taken care of before the big day.

Charlie

30 Days....Long Run on the Monon

In the little time I have left to train I went for a 2 hour run. I covered 8.1 miles today. My pace was 14:19/mile. This is around the time I would like to have for the marathon.

The run felt good. The Monon already has leaves falling. Looks like it will be an early fall. I felt good, and I wanted to be sure I did not push too hard. I wanted to keep it steady, and I was pretty close to an even pace.

Of course the two things in my head were Portland and Sabrina. Both my running and fundraising goal are so close. Can't believe it will be over in 30 days.

Charlie

Trip to the Ortho

Today I went to see the Orthopedic specialist my doctor recommended. Most of my youth was spent in Dr. Dingley's office, and it was always a miserable experience. If the appointment was at 2, I usually saw him at 3:30 or 4:00. He was not a pleasant man, very sterile feeling and looking.

This was the man my parents entrusted to help me walk as normally as possible. He had me go through braces on my legs, orthopedic shoes(which are not cool when you are a kid), and I had to undergo a surgery which radically altered my right foot. I will tell you, I was never 100% convinced that surgery did anything.

So as I waited for Dr. Patel to come in, I flashed back to all those horrible times. I especially remember Dr. Dingley telling my I would not be able to walk when I was in my 60s.

Dr. Patel could not have been nicer. I explained the pain I had in my foot a few weeks ago, and he explained that yes I do have Arthritis in my foot, and the pain was a nerve. I had stretched my foot pretty bad and it triggered the nerve pain.

We talked about my running. Yes, I can keep running. Three times a week is fine. Water running is a recommended cross train. He wants to keep an eye on how I do after the marathon. He doesn't think orthodics would help me at all(good). He also told me my suspicions about how the surgery in my teens probably did not do much was right on. He indicated it was probably the best they could do then.

So all is go for Portland...I just have to get the runs in.

Charlie

32 Days.....Planning the Marathon

As I am getting ready for the marathon, I am paying more attention to things like the course map, and the video tour. I have no experience running in Portland, and I want to be ready.

The course is mostly flat. The rolly nature of the course due in part to the bridges that need to be crossed, but the elevation change is not substantial. As I look at the elevation map I see bumps, but I have to realize those are not hills. The beginning of the race rises to 150', then goes down. Once I get to mile 17, I have gone back up to 140', then it is a gradual decline to mile 26. Yes, you go up a bit to the finish, but it is nothing substantial.

So how do I make this race manageable. A lot of a marathon in mental. The running/walking will happen. It's how you train your brain for the long distances. I have decided to take the race in 4 mile increments. That seems like something I can wrap my brain around.

I am also targeting a slower pace. I felt good after the Geist Half Marathon, because I never went too fast. I stayed even until the last few miles when I began to slow. I felt so good after that race(heel blister aside).

Can I PR in this race? Well I am sure my head will go there, but practically, I am not shooting for that. I am in it to finish it.

Now all I have to do is hope it doesn't rain in Portland.....yeah!

Charlie

"Portland, Portland, Portland"

Today I ran the track at NIFS and got 4 miles in. This was a good run. I was zipping around the track. Well I was zipping for me.

I try to have a mantra in my head. Today that mantra was, "Portland, Portland, Portland." Yes, I am focused on this marathon. I have been studying the map, looking at the elevation, and trying to plan how to run it.

During my run, I imagined myself at various miles along the route. I slowed as I "ran through mile 16." I picked up the pace as I imagined the finish line. So I ran the whole marathon in 4 miles today. LOL.

I felt good, better, than I have lately.

Charlie

Odd Season

As the clock winds down to the start of the Portland Marathon, I am struck at just how odd this season has been. On a daily basis I help people with advice, selling them the gear they need, and being supportive. At this point I know all the rules of training. Oddly enough....this training has gone nothing like that.

Instead it has been a start and stop healthy/non-healthy training. There has been one thing though that has come back, and the joy I was lacking is back. I am loving the running. I am loving the lacing up the shoes and going out. The passion I felt was missing is back.

What happened?

I think the atmosphere I am in has been a better one for me. While being in Indiana has been hard for Mark, I am loving it. I am loving the quiet I had not had for a long time.

My job allows me to be creative with what I want to do.

Those things have made me more positive in general. So how does that affect my love for running? It has gotten me out the door, because I am in a better place. I was trying to make the running do something for me. It wasn't organic. I needed to have a clearer head to appreciate the running. I am feeling that now, and I want to run everyday - I just can't run every day.

Looking forward to this week's running.

Charlie

13 Mile Week

With today's run I have run 13 miles this week. I'd say that was pretty good after a two and a half week layoff. Today I ran 4 miles at NIFS. It was a solid run. I felt pretty good. I thought about going longer, but to be honest, I didn't want to push things. My goal for next week will be longer runs, and a bike ride or two to cross train.

Charlie

Slow and Plodding

Yesterday I hit the gym to run. I would describe it more as a plod. Still think having a very slow run, and by slow I mean 14 minute pace, is good for you. The marathon isn't about speed, it's about endurance and patience.

I was patient during the run. I listened to the iPod, which I don't always do. I listened to Steve Runner talk about happiness on Phedippidations. Great podcast.

My body felt ok. Still feel like I am coming back after not running for a long, long time. Then again, maybe 2 weeks is a long time in the grand scheme of things. I wasn't achy, just felt a bit stiff.

On the track some very speedy folks zipping on by. I let them. I'm getting better at people lapping me. I think this helps mentally, because I know when I'm in a race, it does irk me as people go by.

So the pace got slower as I did the 5 miles. My last mile was a 15 minute mile. As you know that is very slow for me. My overall pace was 14:01/mile. For the marathon I want to be under a 14 minute pace for a majority of the race.

Another run is in the books, and the countdown continues to Portland.

Charlie

Counting Down

The days until the marathon are dwindling, so are the training opportunities. Clearly the training took a HUGE hit with my foot hurting. I am good for now, and as long as I feel good, I am running. That's all I can do. I can't dwell on the fact the training has not gone according to plan. I know what I need to do to PR in the marathon, and so far the runs I have been able to do are getting me there.

Today's goal is to run 6 miles or 1 1/2 hours - whichever comes first.

Charlie

4 Miles in Return

Yesterday I nervously headed to the Monon for a run. My goal was to go for 30 minutes, and if things felt good, I would go a bit further. I did some stretches before the run. My right foot was feeling a bit stiff, but no pain. It also helped I took some Ibuprofen in the morning. Off I went.

My biggest apprehension was taking the first step. How would it feel? It felt great! Still stiff, but no pain. I began to run in earnest. My pace was not fast at all. How could it be after not running for over two weeks. I was keeping things in the 12-13 minute range.

I go to the Monon Center which is a 1.5 miles into the run, and I thought I should go on. I went another 1/2 mile, then I turned around and began the run back.

It felt damn good to be out there. People were saying good morning. I was smiling. I was enjoying the run. My mind was not concentrating on anything other than where I was at the moment. It felt wonderful. The weather was warm, but not hot. Of course it helps to run in the shade.

This was a terrific return to my running. Now I have to look at it as training. Portland is 48 days away. Obviously I can't train like nothing happened. So I have to re-think how I will do this. My goal over the next few weeks is to be able to get to a 4 hour run. That is going to happen slowly, but I will get there.

A good accomplishment yesterday....on to the next run.

Charlie

Degeneration

I have written many times about the difficulties I have running. Today I was reminded of just how difficult it is. I went to the doctor in order to find out why I have been in pain.

In short, the doctor doesn't know, and I am going to see a specialist. I did have to have some X-rays on my right foot, and I got to see quite a bit. I need to learn more about the operations I went through when I was young. My right foot looks like no other. Things have been fused, the shape is all odd.

What I learned today though is the bones have suffered some degeneration. This is caused by the wear and tear I have gone through all my life. As usual I have stumped the doctor as to how I am able to run. He doesn't get it, and he doesn't want to be the one to tell me I can't run.

His advice today was to run when I feel good, and to not run when I don't feel good. Not the best way to train for a marathon. I think though my marathon days may be coming to an end. You don't know how hard that is for me to say, especially if you know all I have wanted to accomplish.

Time is catching up, and I have to figure out what I need to do to keep running. In the meantime I will see the specialist and hear what he has to say.

Charlie

Tomorrow - the Doctor

I have not run in two weeks, and I finally have an appointment to see the doctor about my foot. As usual I am nervous about seeing the doctor. This is important though, because the pain is not going away.

I have hated every moment I am not running, for many reasons. Most of all I hate the fact I'm not out there.

I have bought a bike last week for cross training purposes. Of course this led me to joke that I am a Speedo away from a triathlon.

I will update all of you about what the doctor says.

Charlie

DNS

In running there are two terms which runners hate - DNS(Did Not Start) and DNF(Did Not Finish). Of the two, the latter is the worse - in my opinion. Over the weekend I was supposed to run the Little Miami Half Marathon. I didn't. I had a DNS.

Over a week ago, I injured my right foot, between the big toe and the second toe. It has hurt quite a bit to bend my foot. In the end, I could tell it was better than it had been, but running on it was a NO! So I didn't run. I did see the course, and it was beautiful. A tree lined trail, similar to the Monon. I wanted to run it very badly.

What has really bothered me more is that I have not been able to run for 1 1/2 weeks. This puts me behind in training. So I think I need to see the doctor. This terrifies me, because it would kill me if I can't run.

DNS is not what I want in any race, but if it means I need to be better for the next one, then I am ok with that.

Charlie

Almost Decision Time

My right foot is not getting any better. It has moments where it is good, but then the sharp pain comes back. Ibuprofen and a massage helped, but that won't be totally available to me on Sunday in Ohio. I still have a day to decide if I will run this race. I just hate this feeling.

Charlie

Sabrina's Birthday

Today my sweet little pumpkin turns 9 years old. Yes, today is Sabrina's birthday. It's hard to believe that over 9 years ago no one knew there would be this special little girl in our lives. I remember how happy my sister Anne was when Sabrina was born. I also remember how sad she felt when we found out Sabrina had Down Syndrome.

That sadness turned into acceptance and love. Sabrina has been such a joy in all our lives. She brings a lot of energy, wonder, love and a bit a mischief to our lives. In short, she is like any other 9 year old. As a loving uncle, I am incredibly proud of her.

Sabrina is busy exploring new aspects of life every day. This summer she has taken swim lessons, and is doing very well. She has taken dance lessons, and after watching a video of her performance, I think we have a dancing star. Then again, I could be biased.

This little girl can melt the coldest of hearts.

I want a life for Sabrina that allows her to conquer new frontiers. I want her life to be happy and productive. The National Down Syndrome Society(NDSS) works very hard to make sure Sabrina, and so many like her, have a better life, full of opportunities.

www.ndss.org

As you all know I am raising money for NDSS in honor of Sabrina. Please consider donating towards my $2000 goal. I am so close to reaching it. Once I hit it, I am done fundraising, but not raising awareness of Down Syndrome, and the work NDSS does.

www.crowdrise.com/runningforsabrina

Charlie

Foot Pain

This week I haven't been able to run, it's depressing the heck out of me. I have some foot pain. The area where my right big toe bends hurts. It happened after I slept on the floor this past weekend, because we had company. I have been limping since.

I try to take it easy, but that's hard when you are on your feet most of the day at work. Today though is better than yesterday. I would just like to me ok, because I really want to run this 1/2 marathon this weekend.

Arrrgh!

Charlie

The Week Before

My running was pretty good last week, though I would have liked to have some longer runs in there. Schedule and life did not cooperate. I know there are people who are able to do all this training. Not sure what I am doing or not doing to make those really longer ones happen?

I'm not upset about it though, because my runs have been good ones, ones that helped me examine my form and pace. I know understand what I have been doing on in previous races. At least I think I understand. My pacing has always been about time and making it faster. I can PR, I just need an even pace. I run better with an even pace.

Tomorrow I am doing a longer run, and I will put this to the test.

Charlie

This Close

The fundraising for NDSS has gone better than I expected. I have hit the $1000 and $1500 marks. Now I am aiming for a final goal of $2000. I am THIS close. As of this writing I have raised $1,670. I am so thankful for the tremendous generosity of people.

If you have not given yet, I encourage you to do so at www.crowdrise.com/runningforsabrina. For information on the wonderful work NDSS does, please go to www.ndss.org.

You can also read my interview with Jordana Stern from NDSS on this blog.

http://running-with-coffee.blogspot.com/2011/06/ndss-interview-part-1.html

http://running-with-coffee.blogspot.com/2011/06/ndss-interview-part-2.html

http://running-with-coffee.blogspot.com/2011/06/ndss-interview-part-3.html

http://running-with-coffee.blogspot.com/2011/06/ndss-interview-part-4.html

http://running-with-coffee.blogspot.com/2011/06/ndss-interview-part-5.html

Thanks,

Charlie

My Brother

August 8 is always a difficult day in my family. It's the day we lost my brother David. David was my older brother. He was one of those kids you would think came out of a 1950s family sitcom. He as a good guy, well mannered, funny, well liked, played sports, and was idolized by his younger brother.

We lost David on this day in 1968. He as 16 years old. He was electrocuted from a lightning strike. Yes, it was an incredibly horrible accident. I was 5 at the time. My parents were devastated, and never fully recovered from this. I had to grow up very quickly.

My memories are vague, but here is what I remember. I remember a teenager who always had time for his little brother. We played. He would put my on his shoulders. David was well over 6' tall, so I touched the ceiling.

I remember mom taking me to some of his basketball games. He was very athletic. He would also golf and fish. I wish I had had his skills.

Losing him was so hard. Very hard. My parents were never the same as I indicated. I won't go into details, but if there was ever an episode which changed lives, this was it.

I wish I had gotten to grow up with him. I wish we had more time to play ball, go to games, pal around. I wish he could have done on runs with me. Who knows I might have even beaten him in a race or two.

He left us way too soon.

I thought about David on my run this morning. He would have been 59 this year. Not a day goes by that I wish he was still with us.

My run felt heavy today, and I am sure it was because I was feeling down about the day. Still I always feel his presence, and I know he watches me. Just as I cheered him on as a kid, I hope he is cheering me on while I run.

Charlie

Journey

As regular readers know, the journey is what is important to me in running. I thought about this yesterday on my long run. I started with the mantra in my head, "Journey." As I ran I began to reflect on my running past.

I thought about my first 5K - a Halloween themed race, where I ran for 45 minutes. I thought about my sister cheering me on at my first half marathon. I remembered that feeling of emotion when I finished my first marathon. I also thought about three wonderful kids who ran with me at the finish of my last marathon.

The journey is running is more important as the destination. Goals are set, but when one is met, you move on to the next one. Those series of goals make up the journey of your running life. My running journey is beginning to take a different turn. Yes, I am still running the races I want to run, but I look at my running differently.

Speed is not my focus, endurance is my focus. I want to run for the long haul. Yes, I would love to crack 6 hours at a marathon, but it may not be by speed alone. It's maintaining my health, making sure I am running the runs I want to run, and pacing myself which will get me where I want to go.

I have been running now for 7 years, and I want to make sure I am running for the rest of my life.

Charlie

Running Envy

I have run 6 miles over the last two days. Monday was on the track, and yesterday was on the Monon. In both cases, I watched others around me run, and as usual I got caught up in a bit of running envy. Running envy?

In this case, running envy is when I see how natural some people make running look, and I can't achieve that. There is a nice ease to some people's running that I just can't do. As many of you know, with my foot issues, running is not something I naturally do. I have to work at it. I've seen me run. Trust me there is no ease, nice flow, or effortless movement. That is what I wish I had.

I run with a short stride and I look very stiff. I can't kick my legs up. I do try to lengthen my stride, but it still looks and feels choppy and labored.

I know you're thinking, "Charlie at least you can run, stop complaining." Gotcha. Still when I see someone looking like they're floating by......

Charlie