Royal Wedding Run

Today was the beautiful wedding of Prince William and Kate Middleton in London. I was up at 4 am to watch, and later in the day I ran what I will call the Royal Wedding Run. I went to Carmel to the Monon Community Center, which sits on the Monon Trail. It's a wonderful facility with a gym, pool, basketball court, wildlife educational facilities.

The trail was active with runners, bikers, skateboarders and walkers. I headed north at a nice easy pace. My goal was to do 20 minutes out, and 20 back. The weather was ideal. Temps were in the low 60s and sunny. I ran to the downtown area. My turn around was just beyond the Palladium, the new performing arts center in Carmel, which if you believe people in the area is the next Carnegie Hall. We'll see. Still it's a lovely building.

At the turnaround point the time was 20:20. I headed back. I have enjoyed running of late, and my dominant thought was - I am a runner again. That is no small feat for me to think. As you know from reading my blog for the last many months, I have not felt like a runner. Today I did. I even thought about how to begin to trim my time more and more. That's the runner I know.

A good run. Next week I have a 2 hour long run planned. That will be a challenge.

Charlie

Running at the Crack of Dawn

Last night Mark promised me that if I woke him up early this morning, he would head to the gym with me. He did it!!!

We got to the gym before the Sun, and a running I did go. The track seemed so easy today, and I ran pretty fast. My first mile was in 11:20. No plodding along for me. I was able to maintain a similar pace for the 30 minute run. I ran 2.62 miles. Phew....I was sweating hard out there.

In my head this morning? Portland. I thought only about Portland, and how badly I want to do well there this fall. Can I do 6 hours....if I work hard at it. Otherwise, I would like to simply PR. Can I do it? I was encouraged my a co-worker that I could.

What say you?

Charlie

Managing Expectations

One of the difficult things about running is comparing yourself to your past runs. We all do it, and overcoming it is hard. I can't compare my running to 2007, which was my big year for running. Yet I do.

I have to remember the following:

I am a few years older.

I am a few pounds heavier.

I'm not running and working out like I was then.

I have to know that my running is what it is - a work in progress. I have to be satisfied with where I am now, because I am not who I was then.

Today I was pleased with my run. I pushed myself to be a bit speedier. I did. My pace was 12:16 a mile. I did 3 miles on the track, and it was a good solid run. My pace is not going to always be the same. I run on different types of courses, and I live in a part of the city which is not flat. So my times will be slower as I go through the rolling roads.

Making peace with where I am is important to me. Fitness comes with time. Improvement comes with time. I also have to know that those improvements will be different as I inch closer to 50.

Good run...and a few weeks until the 1/2 marathon.

Charlie

Running Back in Time

This morning was a particularly challenging run on many levels. From the run standpoint, my friend Kris and I and a couple other ladies ran part of the course of the 1/2 marathon we will be doing in a few weeks. I often talk about the rolly nature of where I run these days near my home.

Today was hilly, and I mean hilly and rolly. Yikes. Physically it was a challenge, but add what was in my head, there were a few challenges going on.

My cousin Nancy died this week. This is a heartbreaking loss for me. As a boy, Nancy was my favorite cousin. In my mind, she was learned traveler, who had studied and traveled in Europe. She was a free spirit as far as I knew what that was back then. To her, I wasn't just Charlie, I was "Chalie Chalie" has she would say from time to time.

She and my mother shared the same name. Both were highly intelligent women. Both traveled. Both went through a period of incredible hardship and suffering. Both were women I looked up to. Now, they are both gone by Cancer.

My best memories of Nancy were when I was pretty young. I don't even want to guess how old I was. I do know I was old enough to go on a trip without my parents to my uncle's farm in Illinois. Nancy came to get me in South Bend, and we went on an adventure - road trip variety.

I remember we chatted all throughout the drive, and at one point I had seen a sign I had seen many times before, advertising a road stop restaurant - like a Stuckey's. Those weren't places my folks normally took us, and I really wanted to see it. I asked, and Nancy said, "Of course we can." Of course??? WOW!!!!

We stopped, and I seem to remember us ordering milk shakes. Probably the best milk shake I ever had. Nancy always had a smile when she was with me, and I remember it big as anything from my being in this cool place having a milk shake, and no parents around.

That visit was great, because I got to have the farm, my uncle and aunt, my grandmother and my cousin Nancy all to myself. The farm was always a fascinating place to me as a kid. I got to see cows up close. I could explore the farm that had been in my mom's family when she was a girl. I also didn't have to share any of this with my parents or my other cousins. This was my trip.

Nancy and I spent a great deal of time talking. I loved to talk to adults as a kid, but this was special, because she would tell me stories of her time in Europe - HEAVEN! At the end of this trip, my parents came down, spend a few days, and the visit was like our usual ones. I was just so glad to have that special visit all on my own - thanks to Nancy.

I thought about this trip, and that special time with her on my run this morning. I tried to block out the heartache I felt when she went through the horrible ordeal with her ex-husband, and how that changed her.

She was also the first member of my extended family I came out to, and she made it clear that to her, I was the same person. I was still "Chalie Chalie." I treasured my relationship with Nancy, and now I feel a certain pain in my heart, and a void in my life.

In the end I hope she wasn't in pain or suffering. I hope in her last few days she also thought about that special trip.

My hope is she is at peace.

Charlie

Running Topics from Boston to Dean to Portland

Lots to talk about in this post so I will get to it.

Today was the 115th Boston Marathon. The men's race saw fastest marathon EVER -2:03:02. Geoffrey Mutal of Kenya ran a brilliant race, even passing the early fast pace Ryan Hall was setting. The women's was a duel at the end between Caroline Kilel of Kenya and Desiree Davila of the U.S.. No American woman has won Boston since 1985, and this one came to the wire. 2 seconds separated the two women.

Yesterday was one of those rare runs, which combines running with heroes and running in a grand place. The setting was the Indianapolis Motor Speedway. I got the chance to do a charity run with ultramarathoner - Dean Karnazes. What a thrill to be run with him. To be fair, there were about 70 other people, but still we had a blast going around the 2.5 mile track, usually set aside for Unser's, Foyt's and Andretti's.

Today's run was a 3 miler around the track. My mantra was, "Portland, Portland" I really want to do well at this marathon, and I feel pretty good....for carrying an extra 30-35 pounds. Ugh! Still I am working at it, and feeling good about things.

Charlie

Running with the Crew

Last night I organized a group run of employees from the stores in my company. I thought this would be a great idea to go for a run, since we work for a running store company. I also thought the regular group run night was a good time for all of use to head out.

There were six of us who gathered to join the Run With a Cop program which runs each Thursday out of our store in Carmel. This was the first time folks from the company have done this, and I am happy to report we all had a good time. The run was 40-45 minutes, which in my case was 3.33 miles.

It was a warm night, and it felt it. The running, as it usually is with a group of friends, was slow. You spend a lot of time talking, and not focus on the run itself. I felt tired, mostly because I had done a pretty intense 30-45 minute workout at the gym a few hours earlier. Note to self....no workout before a run.

Overall I was happy with the run.

Today I met a new doctor, so I can work on getting in better shape and health. I went to one a month ago, and was not happy with him. This one I felt good about. I will write more about him later. Just know I felt good with who I found today.

Charlie

Back, Better and Running

HELLOOOOOOO!

Yes it's been a while, but I am back, I am better and I am running. After a week of nasty cold/flu/whatever, I took to running this week. On Monday I very gingerly ran 2 miles, and that was tough. A week of being sick and non-running was not good for me.

As I ran I still had some crap in my lungs, so my chest was not 100% as I ran.

That changed this morning. Today I ran 2.6 miles, and I felt sooooo much better. How did I run? Well I did ok, but it didn't feel pretty. I think I was just glad to be out and running.

Thoughts in my head took me back a few years. I have talked in the past about my suicide attempt. Yesterday was the anniversary of that attempt. I thought about things which have happened in the last 23 years.

I have had wonderful highs, very bad lows, but one thing is for certain, I have never felt that pain or sadness I was going through when I tried to kill myself. I am not that sad 20something. I am living a good life, but it could be better, and that is what I focus on - making it better.

Charlie

So Sick

I have been sick for a few days now, and I hate it. I hate the sore throat. I hate the stuffy nose. I hate the feverish feeling. There is just not silver lining in being sick.

I mostly hate that I haven't been able to run.

Charlie

Plan Run - Cancelled

Today I was going to run 45 minutes - nope, not today. Last week Mark was sick, well it looks like it's my turn. I have a slight fever, my throat is sore and scratchy, and I feel gross. So I am not heading out on a run today.

I'm sure standing outside to help runners with water on a chilly Indiana morning did nothing to help my cause.

UGH!

Charlie