Valuing Life

It is a very cliched thing, but none the less true, that when you are faced with a possible diagnosis of Cancer, or any other life threatening ailment, you really think about life, and what you value about it. The last few weeks have given my an opportunity to really look at life, and see how much I value it.

The doctor's visit went like this..... I got to his office at 9:17 - early, but there. I signed in, and within two minutes, I was asked to go into the examination room. As he had previously, Mark was there for moral support, and a tissue if needed. I really appreciate Mark being with me. Considering all the medical issues he has faced this year, I was really glad he came along. I felt like I had helped him a great deal, and now the favor was being returned.

The doctor poked his head in, and said "I have one person ahead of you, but I wanted to let you know you that you are 100% free of Cancer. I didn't want you to stew about it. I'll be right back." Mark got up, gave me a hug, and I cried. Once the emotional part was over, the doctor came back in, and talked to me about it. He reviewed everything with me. I have calcification on the prostate. I asked what needed to be done about it. The doctor, told me if it isn't Cancer, he is not concerned. That was what he felt during the rectal exam.

So then I let it all sink in - I don't have Prostate Cancer!

I smiled so much, and told the doctor I had been writing about his on my blog, so if he reads this, he comes off as a hero in this story.

I do have to go back in a year for an annual check up. I am happy to do that. The visit was over at 9:38 a.m..

The rest of the day I did various things. I headed to the Zoo. I got to feed the cows at the Farm at the Zoo! I also headed to Barnes and Noble and bought a book. In short, I took it easy, and gave some quiet thanks to God that I don't have to face Cancer.

This is the third time I have to seriously look at life, and be reminded how much living I have to do, and how much I cherish my life. A false HIV diagnosis, a failed suicide attempt and now dodging Prostate Cancer. One day the real deal will happen. Until then I continue with my plan to live life to the fullest.

Tomorrow I see my regular doctor. We are going to review everything, and if all goes well I will have a green light to train for a marathon next year. I can tell you if I am allowed, it is going to be my best marathon - ever!

My family and friends are an amazing support. I am also so appreciative the support all of you readers have shown. You have no idea how much it means to me. Thank you.

Peace,
Charlie