Yesterday my goal was a 45-50 minute run. I had many thoughts in my mind. Mostly I was thinking of my cousin Nancy who is very ill. When I was a boy Nancy was the one I loved hanging out with the most. She was the cool cousin. She had traveled, she was intelligent, and she had such a joy to her.
One of my best memories is when she came to get me in South Bend to take me to my uncle's farm in Elkhart. This was my first trip away from home. Nancy and I had such fun in the car. She even took me to a cool place called Stuckey's. I know....some of you know that Stuckey's is a glorified truck stop. To a kid though, it was amazing.
Nancy married a man who I didn't like. There was an episode where he is was mean to me. He said something very unkind, and I remember thinking this was not a nice man. As it turned out, he was a horrible man, who ruined his family, and in the process changed my beloved cousin.
Nancy has always had a problem with her weight, and she is a huge smoker. To that end, she is suffering from Diabetes, and there is Cancer. You have no idea how much it pains me to think of my wonderful cousin suffering these days.
My personal thoughts on this run were that I can't let this happen to me. I have to keep running. At 40 minutes I was tired, because I was running hard. What pushed me through was thinking I don't want to suffer as Nancy is suffering. I pushed on for that last 5 minutes, and even increased my speed.
Exercise is one part of the equation. Now I am going to look deeper into what I am putting into me. Weight and health is a two part process.
Charlie