Not Feeling It

This has been an odd week for me. I just have not felt like running. It would be easy to say I have been busy, too busy, but that would be incorrect. I have been down lately. Usually I would go for a run to cheer my spirits, but right now, I am just not feeling it.

So what is wrong? I have had some personal setbacks in the last few weeks, which are leading me to think about the future. Things I thought I knew, I am not so sure about. As much as I would like to go into what lead to my sadness, I can;t right now. It is deep enough that I feel I am at a cross roads.

There is much I want to do in life. One of those goals is developing my own non profit organization. Some know I hold a master's degree in non profit management. There have been organizations I had hoped to work for, but it has never worked out. So maybe the answer is to find a need, and see what call to action there is for me. I have a few things in mind.

How does this affect my running? Feeling down for an emotional eater like me means I tend to eat more, and I feel I have done that this week. I know things will turn around, and I will get back into a stronger desire to run. Who knows, maybe I just need to write all of this to get it out of my system. I plan on a run tomorrow, so we will see.

I just know that the disappointment I have had lately has had an important impact on me.

Mark has been a tremendous support for me. Also the fact Christmas is coming is helping.

I have decided 2010 is a year of change for me. Not sure what that change will look like, but I think it will be big.

Charlie