Saturday, December 31, 2011

New Year's Eve Wishes

Here is what I wish for 2012......

May the world take further steps back from the insanity of war and terror.

May we as a country take more steps to understanding that the marriage of two men or two women does not destroy marriage or family, but only enhances it.

As our nation decides our future, let us do it clearly, and not with negative rhetoric which will only lead to worse times.

May those who want a job find one.

For my sweet Mark, who I love with all my heart, may he find where he is in his journey, and be successful.

For me, I am wishing for a healthy new year.

For all of you, I wish nothing but good things in the coming year.

Charlie

Friday, December 30, 2011

One More Look Back Before Moving Ahead

While I am working on the reboot of my life(as it were), I want to look back over 2011 for a moment or two. 2011 was not a stellar year running wise. I had two highlights this year. One was running the Geist Half Marathon. The other was my fundraising campaign for NDSS.

It's always exciting when someone challenges themselves with a race. I have known my friend Kris since our days at Indiana University. She took up running in the last couple years, and wanted to tackle her first half marathon. She asked me to run the Geist Half Marathon with her. I did, and was happy to do it.

Supporting a friend with their running is the equivalent of giving back to the community. We had a good day. Well it was good other than Kris stepping on a nail at mile 2. That was a scary moment. Still she pushed through and no serious injury. She ran ahead once we got closer to the hill portion of the race, but I was very proud of her when I saw her after I crossed the finish line.

The campaign to raise money in honor of my niece Sabrina was one of my biggest challenges, at many levels. I had never done a large fund raising campaign. I know there are people who put on parties, sell food, have garage sales, etc. I did all my fundraising online. In the end I raised just over $2000 for the National Down Syndrome Society.

Anytime you do take on an endeavor like this you learn a lot. Here some of what I learned: I was reminded how strong parents of kids with Down Syndrome are. My sister Anne is amazing to me as she raises Sabrina; I learned about the generosity of friends, even those I have not had contact with in over 20 years, as they came forward to help me with my cause; again I was reminded what we can do when we push ourselves. While I would rather have not taken 8 hours to complete the Portland Marathon, I know I can do what I need to do when the time comes. When I feel I can't do something, my marathon memory should remind me....yes I can.

So now I look ahead to 2012. The goals are "simple." I am planning on running at least 4 half marathon during the year. I will work on getting fit again. I will also work towards a PR. I imagine the latter will come as the year goes on, and not my first race.

Reminder, the first half will be in Washington, D.C. on March 17 - Rock n' Roll USA.

TRX class starts January 16. TRX looks like this:

http://www.youtube.com/user/TRXtraining?v=6uNSEHIQw34&feature=pyv&ad=13000890574&kw=TRX

So on to 2012. Thanks 2011, you taught me some good lessons.

Charlie

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Energized and Off

This morning I got my butt to the gym, and off I ran for 30 minutes. It's interesting to see who comes to the gym at various times. Early in the morning is the over 50 crowd. Since I am approaching 50, I guess these are my soon to be peeps.

As I ran I noticed I am lift my shoulders and be tight in the upper body. About midway into the run I was able to loosen up a bit and let my arms go. I found the running to be much easier for me when I did this.

Thoughts as I went round and round...I don't know how I feel about turning 50. I have never been one to worry about age, but as I get closer to it, I am finding I'm not liking it as much. Maybe I'm having that overdue mid-life crisis? I feel like there is much I still want to do in this world....and it isn't getting done. Has anyone gone through that feeling?

Overall though, today was a good day. Glad I hit the gym. Mark and I are now signed up for the TRX class in mid-January. This is going to be, not only motivation, but much needed cross training for me.

The reboot goes on.

Charlie

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Running With Coffee 2.0 - Reboot!

When we see ourselves in the mirror, how often so we really examine what we are seeing. Typically I hate looking at myself in the mirror. I don’t like my body; I dare say I hate it. I came to be ok with it when I lost my initial weight. Now that I have gained weight, I am back to hating looking in the mirror.


Today though I forced myself to take a good look in the mirror. No, I didn’t like what I saw, but I made a deal with myself; if I can work at losing the weight again, I will learn to be ok looking at myself in the mirror.


Today was a reboot of sorts. I have not run in 3 weeks. So I didn’t jump back into running. I did a 1.2 mile challenging walk on the treadmill, and then a furious 1.8 bike ride at the gym. I sweated pretty hard, which was the goal. I felt good. Then I looked in the mirror.


“Ugh” was my initial thought. No, I didn’t weigh myself, but I don’t need the scale to tell me that I am wearing size 42 jeans, and am carrying more weight. Still I looked hard in the mirror and made my promise to lose the weight.


I told Mark we are making a change. Since we moved to Indianapolis we haven’t had a routine. This is something Mark has said from time to time. 2012 will be the year we work on a routine.


Our first step will be a class. I am signing us up for a TRX class. What is TRX you ask? It is suspension training, using your own body weight and gravity to build strength, balance, coordination, flexibility, core and joint stability, all while preventing injuries.


The road back is not going to be easy. No doubt you will hear me complain. I need to be focused, and I need support. If you haven’t given up on me, and are still reading, I hope you will encourage me, scold me if I need scolding, or just plain support me in this endeavor.


My eating is changing too. I have gone out too much, time to be a cook at home. Tonight, a simple beef stew and blackberries for dessert. It takes more than exercise my friend. It takes watching what I am doing with food.


So this is my official reboot. It starts here...and now. And sometime in 2012, we’ll see how that mirror is looking.


Charlie

Wednesday, December 07, 2011

Cross Country Locker Room Talk

I was never on a team in school. So I never got to experience locker room talk. Today at NIFS I listened to guys on the IUPUI Cross Country Team talk to each other. I had to chuckle as I listened.

Guy #1: Dude what are you up to tonight?
Guy #2: Dude I gotta run and get my miles up to 70 this week.
Guy #1: I got tickets to the Butler game want to go?
Guy #2: Don't know, man is it cold out, I don't want to run if it's cold out.
Guy #1: Dude it's cold. Hey....what are you doing tonight?
Guy #3: Why?
Guy #1: Wanna go to the Butler game?
Guy #3: Dude let me get back I gotta run 75 miles this week.
Guy #2: Coach won't like that.
Guy #3: Screw coach I gotta workout.

So all in all I feel like I missed little in school.

My run today was fantastic. I felt a bit like my old self.

Mile 1 - 13:05
Mile 2 - 12:59
Mile 3 - 11:39

Yup, you read that last one correctly. I ZOOMED around the track. I felt like I gave it my all out there, and felt good.

Charlie

Friday, December 02, 2011

Cross Run/Ride

Yesterday at NIFS I did a different workout. I did a bike and run combination. First I ran for two miles on the track. Then I biked for one mile. Then I did a half mile on the track.

I have to say that was an intense workout. Because this was my first time doing this as a workout, I thought 3.5 miles was a good start. The first two miles I did in a little over 26 minutes. The mile on the bike was done in 6:40. That last half mile on the track was slower. Then again I was feeling tired from the bike. I swear I don't know how tri-athletes do this stuff.

Still I enjoyed the workout. It broke things up for me, and it made me sweat!

Will try this again.

Charlie

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Where Have I Been?

So if anyone is still reading my blog, I apologize for not writing lately. Much has been going on, some good, some not so good - mixed bag.

My running has not gone well. Part of it has been the aches I feel in my feet. Mostly I have been upset at my weight gain, and have been feeling sorry for myself. This is not a new feeling for me, and I am not proud about writing it. I have always been honest here, so I continue to be honest. I have to understand that I am not the weight I was, and have to look at running a bit differently for now. I have to understand it is a slow process to get back where I was. I am figuring how to do that....one step at a time for now.

The good news in my life, is a blessed piece of news. Mark and I are engaged. We had a series if talks thus last week, and are making plans to get married. The challenge as you can imagine is where. Few places allow us to get married, and the marriage would not be legal in most of the states.

I believe with all my heat the law of the land will change, but I don't want to be 80 when that happens. Mark and I love each other, and have made a commitment to each other, now we want that commitment to be legal in some aspect, and we want to make it known in front of people who love us.

I can take care of my weight....that is temporary. Loving Mark is a lifetime and I want a long and happy life with him.

As for my running, I have run twice this week. Today's was the better of the two. A sunny and chilly November day on the Monon. I ran 3.1 miles, and it felt good as I ran easy. Thoughts? That's easy.....wedding thoughts.

Charlie

Friday, November 18, 2011

The Problem with Arthritis

A few months ago the doctor gave me some reasonable advice as far as my running. On the days I feel good - run, on the days I don't - don't. It frustrates me that I have arthritis in my feet and hips. It frustrates me a great deal. I would love to run every day, but each day I find myself assessing how I feel, and if I can run.

This morning I wanted to go for a run, but my right foot had that annoying ache between my big and second toes. Not a pleasant feeling. So no run this morning, and a LONG day at work ahead.

So on those days I don't run, what should I do? I don't want to do nothing? What might work? That's what I need to figure out.

Charlie

Monday, November 14, 2011

Recruiting to Move

First Steps is a program my store offers designed to get people out the door and walking. From time to time we offer this, and I think it is truly a great first step towards a more active lifestyle. Yesterday I had the opportunity to speak to a Weight Watchers group about joining our program.

If you haven't been to a Weight Watchers meeting, they can be very inspiring. Members of the group will talk about what they have done, the successes and the failures. Each person learns from the other. Guest speakers are rare at these meetings, so I felt honored to speak to the group.

This is my second time speaking to a Weight Watchers group, and I have to say, it was a great thing to do. I spoke about what my store does, and how we help people at all levels of fitness. Then I spoke about my journey to fitness, and how a program like First Steps can really start you on your way.

Prior to my talk, people came up to my table and politely looked over the information. After the talk, 6 women signed up. One gentleman spoke to me about recovering from a stroke, and how this could help him. I told him if he signed up, we could make the program work for him.

I met people who struggle with weight, and some who have lost a couple hundred pounds. Each person has a story, and I was moved by each one. First Steps is going to be great, and I think I will learn a thing or two from it.

Charlie

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Birthday Run

I went for my birthday run a day early. It was a crisp, Fall day, which is the kind of day that begs to have a run taken. I headed to the Monon Trail, and headed north into Carmel. The run was nice. Most of the leaves are down, but now and then you still see some color on the leaves.

Thoughts on the run turned to what I want to do next in life. Next year I will be 50, so the future is weighing heavy on my mind. I thought my work, and what I want to accomplish there. Were any solid plans formed? No, but this is what a run does for me, it clears my mind of the clutter, and provides an outlet for me to think, plan and dream.

I will share one of the dreams....it involves Paris and running. Paris is my most favorite place in the world. I have visited 5 times, and would love to visit 5 more times. It is old world, cosmopolitan, beauty, charming, and just such a wonder to get lost in. I have never spent more than a few days there, but would love to spend a week or two, or heck even a good month.

I am interested in running the Paris Half Marathon. Mark suggests waiting until I am a bit faster. Since there is a 2:50 course limit, I agree. Still I wish I could do this race next year.

Ah Paris!

See the power of a good run? It can transport you to places beyond the trail.

Charlie

Friday, November 11, 2011

The 2012 Plan

As I think about my next year in running, I wanted to examine how I run the half marathon. 2012 is not a marathon year for me, but it is a half marathon and shorter distance focused year. I would like to do at least 4 half marathons. I have two in mind, and one I have registered for.

First up us the Rock n Roll USA Half Marathon in Washington, D.C. on March 17. Looking forward to running in one of my former cities. I have run the Cherry Blossom 10 Mile Race, but this will be a half through all the cool parts of the city. Looking forward to it.

The other one I am looking at is the Mo'Cowbell Half Marathon in Missouri. Obviously the race is named after the great SNL skit about "Don't Fear the Reaper." Looks like a fun one.

One race I am planning is the Pride Run in New York City in June. The chance to run 5 miles around Central Park really appeals to me.

There will be other races to be sure. I just want to begin focus on faster times. My PR is 2:45. Can I do that? Not at first. It will take time, but that will be the plan for the year.

Charlie

Sunday, November 06, 2011

Hard Lessons

Running teaches us many lessons. Some are amazing and insightful. Others are painful and difficult. Yesterday was one of the hard ones. Yesterday was the annual Monumental Marathon and Half Marathon. Mark wanted to run it, and I was going along to help him on.

Mark did not train like he wanted to, and we came to an understanding that he would walk this. We felt walking strong would carry the day. Speaking of the day, it was ideal. The morning was cold at the start - in the 30s, but would warm up once the sun came up.

We, started with a jog, not a run. I could tell almost immediately it wasn't going to go well. Mark was not looking comfortable at the start. Quickly we started walking, and got in with the last pack of the race. There was a pace leader, and she was a surly woman. She made it clear we had to keep pace, or the truck would come by, and we would have to leave the race.

I think this panicked Mark. He started to panic. He would run a little and walk a little. I felt badly for him, but there was little I could do. He complained he wasn't feeling well. He didn't look good. He also was right in front of the truck, and the pressure of the truck was getting to him.

Mile 2 the truck passed us, and Mark in frustration and sadness told me he couldn't go on. He was almost in tears. He was so upset and sad. All I could do was walk along side him, and gently rub his back and assured him I love him.

I talked to him about how most people never make it to the start line, and that making it to that point is an accomplishment. It was tough for him to hear that, because all he thought was he was a "quitter." Mark is no quitter. He knew that yesterday was not his race, and he just did not have it.

Sometimes we get too stubborn when things aren't working, in trying to make them work. While I am sad for him, the lessons he took were, that sometimes it isn't our day, and he knows what he needs to do the next time, and he will nail it. Tough lessons, but sometimes those are the best.

In the end, I am proud of him, and I love him very much.

Charlie

Wednesday, November 02, 2011

Approaching Mid Life

Next week I turn 49 years old. Anyone who knows me knows I am not one to let age get to me. I have never stressed about age. This year though was a tough one for me, and for the last couple of weeks, I have started to really think about what getting older means for me.

Arthritis and all that comes with that is one thing. Having to wear a hearing aid was another. All of a sudden I felt old. With that feeling of getting old has come a feeling that my time is limited.

No...I'm not dying. I just have a feeling that time is running out to do the things I want to do in life, and that I need to change some of the goals I wanted to do. For instance, I have come to the conclusion that Boston is out. The hills I encountered in Portland made that clear. Also, an ultramarathon is out. 8 hours on the road in Portland, again lesson learned.

So what can I do running wise? I think the 1/2 marathon distance is a better distance for me. I will still do the occasional marathon, but those days feel like they coming to an end. I just have to adjust.

Think I will like my 50s any better?

Charlie

Saturday, October 29, 2011

Dedication

A long time ago, in a time far far away, I was in high school. It was the late 1970s/early 1980s. Running was not on the top of any of my to do lists. I dare say it wasn't on Heidi Moser's list. If it was, I never knew about it.

I was the Swing Choir guy. I always thought of Heidi as the writer/drama gal. We had some mutual classes and friends, but we weren't in the same social circle. As usual, once you leave high school, you go separate ways. We had differing lives. She became dedicated wife and mother. She home schooled her kids, active in her community(if she reads this...I am briefly summing up), and is Team Mom for her kids baseball and football teams.

Me, I became a gay activist, customer service whiz, and then runner(brief summation). Did I mention Heidi ran too? She does.

As we met up years later at a high school reunion, we kept in touch. She started following my running, and I started following her running.

To get to the point, and lots of running later.....Heidi is running the Marine Corps Marathon tomorrow- her first. In order to get herself through the 26.2 miles she dedicating a different mile to someone or someone's who have meant something to her. I am very touched that she is dedicating mile 12 to me. 12 is my favorite number.

I will be thinking of her, and how far she has come in her running. I am glad to have been a small portion of whatever has led her to this point. Run strong Heidi!

Charlie

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Feeling Down? Go For a Run

This week I have been feeling down. There is no one thing which has made me feel bad. Periodically I have moments when I am down. I have run twice this week, and today's was more about getting out and clearing my head. As I have said many times, one of the things running does for me is let me get out of my head for a while. I told Mark I needed to run....and I did.

Mark took our dog, Friday, and did a run/walk, as I went for a 40 some odd minute run on the Hagen Burke Trail in Carmel. It was a sunning Autumn day. Temps were in the low 60s and it felt wonderful out there. Off I went, and almost immediately I could feel the glum fading.

Not that a run can make everything better, but when your head is full of negative things, a run, especially on a day like to today, can help make your head less full of the bad stuff. I was looking around at the fall colors. I was feeling the warmth. I just felt good as I ran. I felt a release.

Since Mark had never been on the trail, I worried if he might get lost, so I cut short my run by a few minutes and headed back to meet up with him. He and Friday did take a wrong turn, but righted themselves. He looked like he was enjoying his walk. Friday looked happy to be out and about.

So what had been in my head that was no negative. Work issues of late, the pile of bills at home, dreading, for the first time the idea of getting older, and missing my mom. We are coming up on the anniversary of her passing, so it's always a sad time for me.

No, the run did not make any of those vanish, but it did help me clear my head and get out of the negative energy I had been in. Had I run longer, who knows, I could have solved all the problems of the world....or not.

In a funk? Go for a run.

Charlie

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

The Return to Running

Yesterday was my first run since the marathon. I think first runs after a major race are tricky, one because you want to run so badly, you just want to let go and run; and two, you have to take it slow, because you are still healing. If you were to let go, you could injure yourself.

I took the second option and ran a nice slow run at the gym. With rain coming down in buckets outside, the track at NIFS provided a nice opportunity to go for a run. I was slow. My average pace never dipped below 13;10. That was fine though. This was my return to running.

This was my run to set some goals for 2012. I think I would like to shoot for 4-6 half marathons next year. One the surface that seems like an ambitious goal for me, but I want to set something I really need to work towards. I thought about how I want to train, eat, and run. Everything needs to build towards my getting back into a shape I am happy with. Yes, I would like to PR. We will see if that is possible, or is age catching up with me.

In the meantime, the Monumental Half Marathon is in a few weeks. I will be walking it with Mark. He is not in running shape right now, and wants to walk it, so we will.

All in all it was a good run for running sake, and for future sake.

Charlie

Saturday, October 15, 2011

What's Next?

Home from Portland, and as usual, my thoughts are on runs I have ahead of me. The immediate plan is to do the Monumental Half Marathon with Mark in a few weeks. I believe we will be walking that. Longer term though, what is in store for me?

I had a very long week and plane ride today to ponder that. I am going to take the next year to work on getting back into shape. I would like to do more races, at varying distances, with the half being the longest I go for the next year. Two years down the road though, I believe I will shoot for one more marathon, and then that may be the end of my marathon days. No race is in my mind, so nothing immediately to strive for.

In the meantime I am going to work on getting in better shape, focusing on my running, and how I can improve. I will of course bring you all along the journey.

Charlie

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Post-Marathon

In the days since the marathon, lots of pain and soreness. This is what happens, and I know it will happen. Still it is no fun to walk around like Frankenstein, because of the pain you're in. I'm getting better though.

So many people have either posted very nice comments on this blog, on my Facebook, or in emails and texts. I truly appreciate it, and am overwhelmed at the amount of support so many have given me.

Wednesday morning quarterbacking, as it were....there are many things I wish could have happened in the race, and leading up to the race. Yes, I wish the training had been better. Yes, I wish I could have run more during the race. Yes, I wish I could have avoided the alternate course. The thing is, it was, what it was, and I learned a great deal about me that day.

I was reminded that when pressed, we have the ability to be strong, and push through. I learned that my love of running is not only still intact, it is even stronger. I also re-learned that runners are wonderful people. They are the ones who chat with you on the course. If you're hurting, they make sure you're ok. They also encourage you. So many people on the out and back portion of the course would say, "Way to go Charlie!" That's a benefit to having your name on your bib.

I feel good about what I accomplished. There are other days to run better races, but there is only one day to have the experience I had.

Charlie

Monday, October 10, 2011

Portland Marathon - A Lesson in Perserverance

Running a marathon is not easy. Those who take it lightly don't respect the distance. If you can't respect the distance, you have no business in the race. Yesterday was the Portland Marathon, and it would be my greatest marathon challenge.

The weather was pretty good. Temps were in the 50s, and there was a misty rain. Yes, I know rain is not my friend, but if you are going to have rain, misty is a good one.

I was in Corral W. I would learn W stood for walkers. Since I am a run/walker, I wasn't thrilled to be in that grouping. Oh little did I know how much W would mean during the day. The frustrating part for me at the start is when I hit the start line, no one was running, they were walking. I had to decide if I was going to bob and weave and move past, or walk. I did a bit of both. I actually walked for the first 1/2 mile, and then began to jog. I thought, this is a better way to start, then going full throttle.

The start of the race takes you uphill, into a very pretty part of Portland. You look to the left, and you look down towards the river. It isn't too long that you descend down towards the river. Now you are along the Willamette River. This is a great place to run, flat, scenic, really nice.

Nice turns industrial at about mile 6. We are still along the river, but we are in the industrial part of town. Not too attractive. I was feeling good. I had left my watch at the apartment, so I was not paying close attention to time. I was running by feel. I was feeling pretty good at this point. I was not running with any power, but a nice jog.

In my mind, I thought a jog would mean I would have something for the latter stages of the race. Remember, my longest training run had been a 3 hour 13 mile run, so I want to run smart. At this point it rained a little harder, but not for long.

Hungry was in my head. Before the race, I had a banana, cereal and some yogurt, and one double shot espresso. At this point though I was hungry. I knew I would meet Mark after mile 11, and he would have a Builder's Bar for me. On I went.

I met Mark at mile 11, got food, Nuun, and some Alleve. The Alleve turned out to not be a great thing. I took it with the Builder's Bar. Alleve was to make sure I would not be in so much pain later in the race. Soon I gave Mark a kiss and off I went.

Mile 12-14 is a very gradual uphill portion of the course, still industrial, but some houses. I was walking more now. Uphill is tough for me to run. Mile 15 though is nothing like the gradual incline.

You come to the St. James Bridge, and it is a 150' incline. I was walking, and feeling more pain now. This was all 150', and it is a sharp hard incline. I took a physical beating on this, and mentally I was beginning to not feel good. Worse though, my stomach was feeling like I wanted to throw up. Part of that was a reaction to oil/gasoline I had been smelling from the industrial area. I thought though, it must be a reaction to Alleve, and little in my stomach. I felt light headed. On I went.

The St. James Bridge showed a wonderful view of Portland and the surrounding areas. No time to stop though I had to move on. At the end of the bridge there is a sharp curve downward. Foot wise that really bothered me, especially for my right foot.

With the pain and nausea I was feeling, this would be the first time I ever wanted to quit a race. On I went though. Mile 18-19 was hard for me mentally. I was breaking down from all my body was feeling. I should say at I was not running. I had been walking since about mile 15. I would walk the remainder of the race. I had downloaded a GPS to my phone, and saw I was nowhere near any pace I would love. I felt miserable.

I knew I had to get my mind in a better place. Showtunes saved the day. In my iPod, I had a series of showtunes programed, and they picked up my spirits a bit. I also began to think seriously about why I was doing this. This race was for my wonderful little pumpkin, Sabrina. I thought about her, and others with Down Syndrome. Their marathons are shorter, but they endure them in many ways. On I went.

Mile 20 was a pivotal point in the race. At this point they did the one thing I want to avoid, they were opening up the streets, and I had to go on the sidewalk, which meant going on the alternate course. The rules of the race are they don't do this until 6 1/2 hours into the race. We were at 5 hours into the race. They switched early. I was not happy about this.

At this point I made calls. I call people when I am struggling in a race. Mark was first. I let him know the hard time I was having, and he assured me I would finish, and he loved me. He could tell I was breaking down.

I called my sister Anne next. She had been following the race through various updates. She told me she and Sabrina were proud of me. She asked me about the music on the course, and the people I was seeing. It was a nice diversion. At one point she heard me talk to a group of people.

A group of folks were celebrating someone finishing the race. I saw the guy with the medal on his neck. They cheered me on, and I said, "Oh crap I suppose this means I didn't win." They laughed and Anne laughed. I joked with Anne that some Kenyan probably beat me by 3 hours, Mark should have been out there with a steak to tempt him away. She laughed. Anne knew though that the joke was hiding how down I was feeling. She and Sabrina wished me well, and lots of love, and on I walked.

The alternate course takes you through neighborhoods nice and not so nice. Lots of turns and uneven sidewalks. It isn't pleasant to go on. Also there is less support from the race on the alternate course. Mile signs are taped to the sidewalk. Mile 21 was through a neighborhood with food trucks. That didn't seem fair, as I didn't have any money on me.

Mile 22 was a less than charming area. Low class motels which can charge weekly, daily or hourly. In fact I believe I saw a "charming" couple trying to check into one. Clearly an arrangement had been made.

Mile 23 I was on the verge of tears. I was tired, in a great amount of pain, still feeling like I wanted to throw up, and I wanted the day to end. I tried to make some jokes with some of the people around me....lead balloon.

Mile 24 was the bridge back into the city, and we got to encounter Occupy Portland. Some of you know about the Occupy Wall Street protests going on. This is the same thing, but in Portland, though I am not sure why Portland. It was a bit of a mess going through the protestors. Police tried to separate, but were not always successful. At this point I met a woman named Debbie, who walked with me for the remainder of the race. I am grateful to her because she was able to help me get all the negative things out of my head.

We talked about my clubbed feet issues, the race she and I had done, and we talked about Sabrina. This was key, this was bringing everything I was doing back home to me. Running with a purpose is a valued thing, and I was so happy to be doing this for her.

Once we cleared the protestors, it was on to the finish. The last mile had to be the longest mile of my life. Pain, hunger, wanting to see Mark, and just wanted to race to end. Finally the finish was in sight. I also saw Mark at the finish line yelling my name. I made an effort to jog to the finish. It was done. After 8:02:34, it was all over. It was the longest I have been on a course. I was mentally exhausted, my body was screaming at me, and I was in tears. Mark gave me a hug, and it felt better.

Because this was the end of the race, a lot of the goodies were gone, and the photographer to take finishers pictures was breaking everything down. I got my medal though.....and I have to say it is one to be proud of.

Before the race I talked about all I wanted to do was finish. Sometimes, that is all you can do. Yesterday was a day to finish, and to finish with my head held high. I did it.

Charlie

Saturday, October 08, 2011

Counting Down to Marathon Day - 1 Day

Tomorrow is Portland Marathon Day! This has been a long time coming. What a journey. I have dealt with foot pain, a cold, fundraising for NDSS, the days I just didn't feel like a run, the days I did feel like a run, but I had to to work. It has been quite a ride.

Tomorrow I will tow the line with a few thousand folks, and off I will venture through a 26.2 mile winding course around Portland. The course is mostly along the river, so it should be a pretty course. There is an industrial area which all the reviews say is not too pleasant, but hey, I will be running through it.

So how do I feel? I feel pretty good. Not achy, that's always a plus. Will limit the walking today. I can't control what went right or wrong with training. I just go - one mile at a time.

Can I PR tomorrow? I am sure that will creep into my head at some point, but for now, the goal is to finish. Mark will meet up with me about half way through and make sure I am ok.

For those interested in tracking my progress, go to http://liveraceresults.com/Portland/ My bib number is 711!

Tomorrow is also a day I honor my niece Sabrina. Her sweet smiling face will be in my thoughts as I take this journey. NDSS has benefited from this run, with $2000 in donations from wonderful people. You can still donate at www.crowdrise.com/runningforsabrina

Tonight, a simple dinner, early to bed....then an early start to the day.

Send positive thoughts my way.

Charlie